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Distractions anyone??
| Mon, 07-11-2011 - 10:59pm |
Well, I spent my first full day in groups today. I should have known it'd be too much. Between that and the ungodly hot weather I think it messed me up a bit. I came home and had a massive anxiety attack. I seriously thought I was about to have a heart attack. So I tried laying down since I thought I'd pass out if I didn't. Talked to my sister for a while on fb and tried txting anyone I could get. My bf called. He always seems to know when I need him :) Finally got feeling a little better. He told me I might need to get hydrated...duh I should have thought of that :/

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I like meditation as my distraction.
My daughter just asked if we could get a jigsaw puzzle to do together :)
I meditate too. Especially when I'm having trouble sleeping. I daydream alot too :P
I do have a problem with sitting still though. I have a huge issue with feeling lazy if I'm not doing something stimulating. Depression has really shot me with this because I am not productive in the least when I'm depressed and people have called me lazy because of that. So now i have this issue with being lazy. If I'm not up doing something I must be lazy :/ Suddenly I've convinced myself i have to be busy.
I do have a very busy mind though even if I'm not physically able. I can easily daydream about various things but I still have trouble totally calming myself down.
Depression always revs me up.
I feel like there's a 500lb. weight tied to my feet and its called fat :/ I'm really miserable and automatically I blame eating and gaining weight.
Don't be so hard on yourself Maryah,
It does lead to alot of confusion.
I am finding writing a journal is helping me get stuff out of my head.
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