Eat and feel guilty

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Eat and feel guilty
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Mon, 07-25-2011 - 1:40pm

That says it all. I eat then I feel guilty. I am constantly telling myself that eating is a positive but my ED head disagrees and can only see the negative side



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Registered: 09-06-2007
Mon, 07-25-2011 - 7:59pm

Exactly!! Same thing here.

Right now I'm doing better though. The past few days I really went in on junk food though. So much so that my body really started feeling terrible. So today I ate real food. A good meal. I still feel guilty in an ED way though :/

I had kinda an eye opener over the weekend. My bf and I had a pretty serious argument. It had nothing to do with ED though. He was angry over something really stupid I did and it hurt him alot. He started yelling at me things like "do you know just what you mean to me? why would you do something to hurt me?" *tears* What gets me about this is that I know the ED hurts him too. I feel guilty when I eat but nowhere as guilty as I do when I hurt him. I HATE to

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Tue, 07-26-2011 - 1:19pm

Hey Maryah,

sounds like you have found the way to motivate yourself to kick ED into a bottomless pit. WTG girl!

We just have to keep trying.