How are you doing?
I'm eating. Still hating myself immensely though. :(
How are ya doing?
I am back eating as well but just see myself getting fatter and fatter. DP says I should think of it as getting healthier and healthier.
My bf says the same thing. I dunno why "healthy" means fat to me.
Truth is I don't think I want to look healthy. I wanna look sick cuz I certainly don't feel good at all.
I'm extremely depressed. Feeling rather hopeless. I have no treatment team at all now and I'm in no state to even look for any. I'm alone constantly and driving myself insane. I'm in b/p mode and I hate it. I dunno how to find that middle ground by myself. It's always all or nothing. I do not know how to change that way of thinking. My brain just does not grasp the concept of moderation. Never any gray areas. I just don't get it :/
I'm running out of options here. I dunno what to do...other than topping myself but I won't do that. Oh...wait...I guess I am...just slowly with this stupid ED.
I really really am hating myself and life in general :(
This time of year is the worst!!
I didn't mean that healthy is fat! I highly doubt you're fat!! I just don't want the ED to try and lie to you and make you think anyone is calling you fat.
You're trying to be better. You're doing the right thing and I'm sure your DP thinks your beautiful. That's cuz you are :)
I was having trouble replying.