Maryah?

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Maryah?
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Thu, 09-01-2011 - 3:52pm

Are you doing OK, sweetie?



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Registered: 09-06-2007
In reply to: promiseplease
Thu, 09-01-2011 - 8:04pm

Sorry been missing :/ Been stressing hard core. My hometown got hit hard by the storm and I hadn't heard from my bf since last friday. I was starting to panic a bit :-o He finally called yesterday. Everything around him got washed out. My ex lost everything! Mean as it sounds, I kinda laughed inside about that tho :P I know it's not funny. My bf was stuck inside his apartment building but he had no power. He's fine thankfully.

I've been having finacial issues again. Someone wrote me a bad check and that set my bank acct. in the negative. Then my dad told me he didn't wanna drive me back for court so I have to take the bus. I have to buy school supplies before I go too. So, I have to borrow money from my dad again since my acct. is in the hole. Plus I had to find someone to take me to court on Thursday.

I'm stressin out here. Groups are rotten too. I'm losing the point of why I'm going. It's ridic :/

At least I get to spend another week with my bf :) I'm a little nervous to see the damage around there tho :(

Hope you are doing okay?? With all te stress and depression, I'm wanting to fall straight into ED again. My DD told me I look 'better' and 'healthier'...to me that's a nice way of telling me I look chubby :(

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In reply to: promiseplease
Fri, 09-02-2011 - 9:48am

Hey maryah,

No, it does not mean you are looking chubby. It means you are beginning to look well and that is good, real good. Don't you start listening to that evil, lying voice of ED. ED is trying to drag you down, fight back and kick it's butt out the door.

I am real glad to hear you are safe, your bf as well.



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Registered: 03-20-2009
In reply to: promiseplease
Tue, 09-06-2011 - 2:47pm

How are you doin' ?

Promise



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Registered: 09-06-2007
In reply to: promiseplease
Fri, 09-09-2011 - 4:02pm

Still out of town. I had court yesterday. Thankfully that is over :)

Oddly, I've been eating all week with not much thought. ED tends to do that to me though. it quiets down long enough for me to think I might be okay and then comes back with a raging vengeance. I dunno, it's just easier with my bf. I just can't seem to hold it together on my own.

I know I won't be stepping on the scale for a while though lol! That would traumatize me for sure :P

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Registered: 03-20-2009
In reply to: promiseplease
Fri, 09-09-2011 - 4:51pm

Hey Maryah,

good to hear you are OK.



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Registered: 09-06-2007
In reply to: promiseplease
Mon, 09-12-2011 - 9:25am

I'm stuck at my bf's place. There's alot of flooding on the way so I couldn't get back. The bus

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Registered: 03-20-2009
In reply to: promiseplease
Mon, 09-12-2011 - 2:46pm

What we both need to do is to stop beating on our fragile self esteem. We are worth so much more, why can't we believe it?

Promise



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Registered: 09-06-2007
In reply to: promiseplease
Mon, 09-12-2011 - 4:43pm

It's so hard to do when people feed your insecurities. My DD is good for that :/ I know she's just a teen but it still hurts that I feel like she's trying to beat me down. Same goes for her idiot father >.<

Nothing I can do about ignorant people I guess :P At the end of the day all I got is me. Better start taking care of "A" number 1 right? Ourselves!!

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In reply to: promiseplease
Tue, 09-13-2011 - 12:35pm

Yeah, some members of my family are like that.