miserable - skipping meals

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miserable - skipping meals
Fri, 08-17-2012 - 1:09pm

I'm miserable today.  I feel horrible about myself and I skipped lunch.  I've gained so much weight in the past couple of years.  I'm a lot heavier right now than I feel comfortable being.  Although, I guess I shouldn't say that because I was never comfortable, not even at my lowest weight.  I just feel hopeless today.  I don't think that there is any way out of this eating disorder for me.  I'm going to struggle with this forever.

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Registered: 09-06-2007
Sat, 08-18-2012 - 10:30am

Gentle (((hug)))

Everything you said, I've said a million times before. I'm never skinny enough, sick enough. Some reason it all translates into I'm just not good enough. :/  And yes, I feel like I'll never get out of this ED hell.

I think I'm better at recognizing what triggers me now. Like stress.is THE main thing that sets off my depression and anxiety and therefore ED. I do feel like I will struggle with Ed forever but I do think it's a process. The struggle doesn't have to be as difficult as it is today. Some days maybe it will be tough. Other days not as much. It can become more manageable.

Hang in there! it can get better <3

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Tue, 08-21-2012 - 12:28pm

(((((HUGS))))). Butterfly, I am real sorry to hear you are so miserable. Things will get better, I promise. I am sure that Maryah, you and I, we can beat this eating disorder because we have all three of us taken a big step forward. We acknowledge we have a problem with food and that means that even with an ED ruling our lives, we are aware of it. Admitting to the problem robs ED of a big part of it's power over us. Does that make sense?