new here, need help

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Registered: 09-13-2011
new here, need help
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Tue, 09-13-2011 - 3:17am

I'm new to the board. I'm 5'4" and weigh 94LBS. My problem is, I don't want to get better, because I don't see a problem, but everyone else does, and so does my primary doctor.

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Tue, 09-13-2011 - 12:29pm

Hey Pic-nic,

welcome to the board.

I have to say that the danger of anorexia is that she (anorexia) messes up our minds as well as our bodies.



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Registered: 09-13-2011
Tue, 09-13-2011 - 5:53pm

Thanks, Promise, it does help. I just have trouble with gaining weight. I know I have a tough battle ahead of me, but I'm willing to do it. I want to have a normal life. I'm just curious as to what lies ahead in this battle. Will I be forced to eat and gain weight? Can medication help me with the emotional struggles? I also suffer from depression and anxiety, and I haven't had any luck with anti-depressants. I'm just full of fear. I had a bad night last night, when I wrote the post, and I had the attitude that "how dare someone tell me I need to gain weight." I was irritated. I have a lot of self esteem issues. It helps having others on here that go thru the same thing. No one in my family or friends understand.

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Registered: 09-13-2011
Tue, 09-13-2011 - 5:53pm
P.S. My name is Nicole, I've left that out.
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Registered: 03-20-2009
Wed, 09-14-2011 - 12:46pm

Hey Pic-nic,

we all hate the food police believe me. It irritates us when we are told what to weigh, what to eat, etc. That's part of EDs weapon against us. Our sensible heads can see that but ED tries to make us think people are trying to control us.

I have depression as well , Maryah also so we do understand. There are some anti depressants that can help with ED because they help the appitite. I have never been forced to eat although I have been told hospitalization will be necessary if my weight goes too low. So far I have managed to avoid that.

We all have self esteem problems. I have started visiting the Self esteem board which has a lovely CL hosting it. I have asked her if she might pop over onto this board and introduce herself as we could all do with working on our self esteem. Friends and family do find it hard to understand. My DP tries, and is very good, but sometimes even he doesn't get it.

Promise



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Registered: 03-20-2009
Wed, 09-14-2011 - 12:52pm

Hey Nicola,

saw this after I posted my reply to you. I'm Promise ( yes, that's my real name)



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Registered: 09-13-2011
Sun, 09-18-2011 - 7:02pm

Thanks for your help! I like that name Promise, its a strong name and sounds encouraging..like the name Faith or Hope.

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Mon, 09-19-2011 - 2:07pm

Thank you. :-)

Promise