This is so hard :(

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Registered: 09-06-2007
This is so hard :(
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Sat, 01-28-2012 - 11:01am

I've been doing pretty good but now something has happened and it's fading fast again. :(

I've been having an issue with my bf and it's killing me. He's always my rock! I know we'll get through it but as of now I dunno how to cope.

My ED is fueled by everything. Even disagreements with my bf. It's so unfair to him. I get thinking he'd be better to leave. If he did I'd probably give up tho. That, too, is unfair to him.

I'm so depressed. I'm also scared I'm gonna mess everything all up again just like always.

I suppose I could feel like doing the wrong thing but still make a choice to do the right thing. I think I'm gonna fail with that today.

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Sun, 01-29-2012 - 10:27am

Hey Maryah,

try and stay strong.

Is the issue with your bf a serious one or is it something you can put right?



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Registered: 09-06-2007
Sun, 01-29-2012 - 2:21pm

Promise...I love your name btw. I wanna steal it :)

It could be serious but I'm not sure if it's just me blowing things out of proportion. I refuse to believe we can't put it right though. We've both been down this weekend and that just doesn't work out too well sometimes.

Today I'm trying to get my head straight. I got up and did a workout and got some good spiritual food :)

I guess I better stop running from myself. That, to me, is the hardest thing to do. 0_0

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Mon, 01-30-2012 - 1:55pm

Thank you,



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Registered: 09-06-2007
Tue, 01-31-2012 - 9:15pm

Blah...this long distance stuff is played out now :(

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Wed, 02-01-2012 - 12:27pm

Hey Marah,

I am thinking moving closer to BF will be good for you and will help give you a target and a reason to get better again. WTG, girl !:smileyhappy: