Struggling to eat

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-20-2009
Struggling to eat
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Mon, 12-12-2011 - 11:25am

And I hate myself because every time I look in the mirror, I just see this hugely fat person.

Promise



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Registered: 09-06-2007
Mon, 12-12-2011 - 6:11pm

((((((((((((((((HUGZ))))))))))))))

I know the feeling far too well :( I try not to look in the mirror or step on the scale. Still doesn't stop my pants from getting tighter everyday.

It's difficult having to trust others who say we aren't fat. I dunno why it's easier to trust the ED.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 03-20-2009
Tue, 12-13-2011 - 2:31pm

Maybe because we believe her lies. ED lies to us.

Love

Promise



iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2007
Tue, 12-13-2011 - 2:45pm

I do believe it :(

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iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2007
Tue, 12-13-2011 - 3:53pm

And the struggle continues...

I wanna go to Subway. I love Subway!! But I'm fighting the battle of whether I should or should not do it.

I can come up with a million reasons why I shouldn't do it. I want to tho!!

The truth is it wouldn't kill me if I did. no real reason not to. Just excuses not to eat.

I don't really wanna deal with the headmess about it tho.

I dunno...it doesn't seem worth it.

I wish I could eat like normal people do :(

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iVillage Member
Registered: 03-20-2009
Wed, 12-14-2011 - 11:52am

I know what you mean. I almost think that I am somehow going to fail if I put weight on, that I become a bad person.

Love

Promise



iVillage Member
Registered: 03-20-2009
Wed, 12-14-2011 - 12:03pm

I know that I wish the same to.



iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2007
Wed, 12-14-2011 - 6:45pm

You're a good person no matter what!! :)

Fail is what I just did....$30 on takeout. I'm about to burst. Obviously, we know what comes next :(

Obviously I have no concept of moderation. I hate myself for that!

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