Trying to live without ED

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Trying to live without ED
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Mon, 03-05-2012 - 9:49pm

I guess I've done enough to prove that I can do it.

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Tue, 03-06-2012 - 9:41am

Yes, that just about explains it pretty much perfectly.

You can be free. Just remember you are a warm, intelligent and wonderful person who is just tired of the battle right now. We can make it.



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Wed, 03-07-2012 - 9:02am

Yesterday wasn't so great. My DD went back to georgia and her sister went with her for a couple weeks. That leaves me alone and that obviously isn't a good idea.

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Thu, 03-08-2012 - 8:16am

I hear you, sister.



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Sun, 03-18-2012 - 2:22pm

All I can think about is how fat I'm getting.

Promise



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Wed, 03-21-2012 - 10:00pm

Ditto :/

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Thu, 03-22-2012 - 3:58pm

Hey Maryah,

I am real sorry to hear you are down too. Is your DD OK?.

How long til you get to be back with your bf?

I am really upset about the weight gain but I know I should be happy.



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Thu, 03-29-2012 - 12:39pm

Sorry I've been slow getting here. Life is chaos lately. :/

My DD is fine but she's having to stay here to have her baby cuz the doc doesn't want her driving back to GA.

I dunno what's going on with getting back with my bf. I wanna move this summer but financially I don't see how that's gonna happen. Also, there's other factors that kinda determine whether I move in with him or get a place of my own. I dunno. My youngest DD wants to go to GA with her sister when she goes back. I'm sure she's gonna change her mind tho so that's something that' needs to be decided.

I hate uncertainty. I hate things I can't control. I hate that I gained more weight and haven't worked out in a long second. I hate that I see flab everywhere.

Okay, so the way I see it is that I can do something about the weight, the working out, the flab. The rest of it I can't do much of anything but wait. So I decided to workout today. I think thats a good thing cuz it makes me feel better. However, ED thinks it wasn't enough. Logically I think 45 mins is enough.

Balance is hard work. I can workout and get toned without being unhealthy. Yes I can control that. The rest...well...I guess I better work on patience...and wait. I have enough control to make proper decisions..even if I don't feel like it.

I still feel outta control. Am I doing something wrong? :/

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Thu, 03-29-2012 - 3:10pm

hey Maryah,

no, you are not doing anything wrong.



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Fri, 03-30-2012 - 12:12pm

ED is brutal on the body :(

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Sat, 03-31-2012 - 1:06pm

Hey Maryah,

just remember muscle is healthy and we need healthy.



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