Worried about being weighed

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Worried about being weighed
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Mon, 07-23-2012 - 6:45am

I got my doctors appointment soon and I just know the nurse is going to want to weigh me. I am dreading it, even if they don't tell me what my weight is. I always struggle with this.  I know it is good for me to gain weight but my anorexia head keeps telling me otherwise.

Love

Promise



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Re: Worried about being weighed
Wed, 07-25-2012 - 9:43am

I'm glad it went better this time :smileyhappy:

I can't seem to quit weighing myself. I am alot better with it these days but I still have to check sometimes. I just can't help myself. Anyway, I've gained so much. More than I ever recall with my other pregnancies. The doc isn't the least bit concerned though. I guess it's just me not wanting to get above xxx amount of weight. :/

I am such a control freak that I always need to know what I weigh! Like I said, I just don't want anyone else to know. At the same time, I think I do want them to know. i'm always conflicted about it. I actually hate weighing at the docs cuz to me it's a private thing. I'd rather do it myself. It's an ED thing I guess. I don't like to share any part of it and weighing myself is a part of it.

Honestly, I'm never happy with what the scale says anyway. It's never "good enough" or "sick enough" so really it's pointless. I know I'm sick. I don't need a doc to tell me that.

As of now, I just have to deal cuz I don't have much of a choice. All i can do is hope that I'll feel better about keeping some weight on after the baby is born. Right now, I'm just not sure.

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Re: Worried about being weighed
Wed, 07-25-2012 - 11:55am

They don't call our or show my husband's weight to him.  If I want to know, I can call and ask.  I think it makes a huge difference for him!

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Thu, 07-26-2012 - 7:21am

Hey Maryah,

I hear ya girl. ED sucks.

Love

Promise



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Thu, 07-26-2012 - 7:23am

Hey,

I now it sure makes a difference to me. I mean , we can tell when we have lost or gained weight, but knowing the numbers just fuels ED.

Love

~Promise



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Registered: 09-06-2007
Thu, 07-26-2012 - 12:52pm

"...but knowing the numbers just fuels ED."

 

That's such a big problem for me. I guess largely why I'm doubtful I'll ever be totally free of ED. I can't let the numbers go! I know I'm more than a number but it's not really about the weight. It's about control and weight is one thing I can control. I also can convince myself that I can control the behaviors IF I maintain without losing anymore and actually eating everyday. However, that's not completely being honest with myself cuz I refuse to quit weighing myself. I'm too afraid I'll just let myself go and get fat :/ I know it's lame but it's a fear. And that fear stems from  much deeper problems I'd much rather forget about.

It's so hard to let go of something you've done almost your entire life. I don't think I'll ever "get rid" of ED but I'll accept being able to live a healthier life with it at this point.

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Fri, 07-27-2012 - 1:16pm

No, ED will never leave us, not completely.  I think we will always have the ED mindset. I think, though, we will learn to accept that and still get better. We will have a healthier lifestyle.

Love

Promise



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Sun, 07-29-2012 - 10:36am

Thanks.  It worked out OK, the nurse was just so great, really understanding.  I know I need to get better and I hope I will. I hope we all will.

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Jillxx



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Wed, 08-01-2012 - 12:28pm

Hey Butterfly,

going through the anxiousness that that type of appointment always brings me. I know I have gained weight.  My DP hides the scales but I find them and then the panic starts.

Love

Promise



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Sat, 08-04-2012 - 12:06am

Hey,

it is a bit like the chicken and the egg, which came first.  I always feel that m,y mental health issues are so tied in with my health and ED issues.

Love

Promise