You ARE depressed and obsessing. You are also fantasizing. None of what you are obsessing and fantasizing about, have the slightest grounding in reality. And they have NOTHING to do with your present situaation. I suggest you get into counseling ASAP.
I personally think counseling has become a scam. It's everyone's first suggestion and it doesn't work. I don't know of a single person in real life who has ever really been helped by counseling.
Hi I'm the original poster of the question but forgot my password and couldnt seem to reset it so created this new username. My question was to do with regrets. Basically it was always a dream of mine to attend a prestigious university and I had the grades at school to do so. but in college unfortunately I did not achieve my potential as my dad was sectioned and I told no one. I also had awful friends, really bad acne and I was from a poor back ground and everyone at my college was wealthy. I was bullied for these reasons and truanted. Also I didn't really have anyone to talk to and wasn't looking at the bigger picture. I got average grades (could have improved then but didn't want to remain at college) anyway I went to an average university which I ended up failing at in my first year because I realised I'd made a mistake and didn't want to be there. But I persevered and graduated. Fortunately for me I made nice friends and got accepted into a great university to do my masters degree. I have just finished and am looking for a job. In the three weeks or so since I've finished I can't help but recalk my past mistakes. Sorry this is so long I guess my question is how do you deal with regrets???
also I occasionally fantasise about how if I had done x,y,z how my life would have been different which isn't helpful. I don't see the point of seeing a counsellor either as I'm being quite logical I just wish it was easier to live with an imperfect pastI suppose I'm a perfectionist.