Trying to fake it, but its getting harder to do
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|Wed, 10-05-2011 - 12:30am|
Ive had self esteem issues all my life...im 29 years old. I'm one of the most jealous people that I know. I hate it and wish i could stop it but i cant. I dont think im horribly fat but i am a bigger girl. about 5'9 and 200 pounds. Thankfully i have some height to stretch out the chubbiness. However, most of my girl friends are thin and goregeous girls. I'm the ugly/chubby one. I have a bf right now who is way out of my league. His downfall is that he's too nice and naive and probably too shy to try and get a hotter chick. I just posted in the relationship forum about how his roommate doesnt think im pretty or thin enough for my man, so thats contributing to my bad self esteem.
Everytime my bf comments about how hot another chick is, i laugh and smile, but it hurts me inside. He doesnt understand why i have such bad self esteem even though ive told him how other bf's have called me fat, etc. He thinks i should just get over it. One night i broke down and told him how gross i felt and wondered why he was with me. He told me he liked my personality. Oh thats what every girl wants to hear, hahaha.