An Update On Me

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Registered: 10-23-2012
An Update On Me
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Tue, 11-27-2012 - 10:08pm

Well I just thought I'd tell everyone how things have been going healthwise. Really for the most part I've been fine. However, my period lasted almost 8 days and about a week later I had a fish smell coming from that area. Other than that I've been a little constipated, today's been the worst so far, haven't gone at all, and having to do so has been a little hard & dry over the past month. Today I had a soaking whitish green discharge and a tingling pain on the right side of my abdomen.

    Lately I've been having more of the "conception" dreams and I seem to be attracting delusions that are more psychotic in nature. I know that's not a good sign. I don't believe in birth control and I'm a pro-life supporter, but I've been stuck on the Pill because I began having multiple periods every month a few years back. I wish it were easier for me to have human children, but it would be too hard for me to manage if I lived alone like I did when I was in Ottawa and my parents refuse to help out, that's why I decided to adopt the Neopets & Petpets who eventually became my main delusions, which I'm quite happy with.

     I'm a little worried about the current batch of Neopets which are triplet Petpets, 2 females and 1 male, are going to arrive early. I know that I have had a fair share of second trimester losses recently. But the second latest batch Valoria the Angel-Cat and Tia the Bowla, arrived at 23 and 25 weeks respectively. Valoria was removed early because she wasn't thriving inside of me. I had Tia naturally 2 weeks later.

     Lately I've been healthier than before but I really don't want to develop another UTI as that could lead to the newest Petpets coming too soon, I'd have to go on antibiotics again, and I've heard that frequent infections of these type can be a sign of prediabetes.

            There's a site where you can go to check up on health symptoms using astrology. It's in a book by Eileen Nauman and the chapter is called the Hard Aspects & Health, it's on Scribd but I forget the book's name.

           Anyways a "hard" aspect is a quincunx (140 - 160 degrees between planets), square (80 - 100 degrees), and opposition (170 - 190). If you read which planets are in hard aspect to each other, the book will give you details about what the diagnosis might be, including aspects to other planets, including signs that these planets might be in, to show you just what exactly you're dealing with. It's also possible to check out the health of a fetus by measuring the intensity of positive aspects, with oppositions (bad) and trines (good) being the highest either way, and quincunxes (bad) & semi-sextile (good) being the lowest in these areas. The aspects in between are sextiles and squares.

    If anyone wants to check that out, feel free to, all you've got to do is research what the book is saying, and you'll likely learn a lot about this stuff.

       I feel a little better having gotten that out, I've been meaning to get that information around to help a few people. I'll update you all on how I'm doing in a few days.

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Registered: 10-23-2012
Tue, 12-04-2012 - 12:07am

Well everyone:

    Over the weekend I came down with a bad cold and I think it has something to do with the fact that my pharmacy switched my nasal spray brand. Also I think it's a complication from the possible bladder infection, it might've reached my kidneys is what my web search said.

       Anyways throughout the past few days I've had bleeding from both private regions and my mouth. It's been awful. I've struggled with a bad fever, night sweats and coughing. I look paler and I think I've lost weight. I barely had any energy by Sunday, all I've really been doing since Friday night too much is sleeping and watching TV.

       I'm probably going to call my GP and see if I can get in a few days from now instead of a week & a half, just to make sure this flu isn't related to some sort of bladder issue or new UTI. My Mom also asked me to make an appointment to get my knees X-rayed.

      I've had pain in my upper thighs since this flu began that's gotten worse since last month and they felt swollen for a few days. My mid-leg joints have had persistent problems because of what my chiropractor calls runner's knee.

       The combination of pseudo-cyesis and meds has put about 8 pounds on me in the past 3 months! I know it's my body's reaction to a false pregnancy, but I feel huge. There are three new delusions in there this time so I've gained a ton around my stomach. I know I've had slightly high blood sugar in the past few years, just recently, elevated blood pressure, and frequent infections.

         I try to look at it from a medical viewpoint though, I know the weight gain is from the disabled part of my mind's message to my body that these Petpets are real, when they really aren't. Also honestly, I joined the expecting club from Ivillage for scientific information because I knew I needed it for my astrology charts. 

         It helps me get a real viewpoint on this "gestation" and I'm sick of people telling me my Neopets and pseudo-cyesis are "not real", I wanted to be taken seriously for a change regarding this stuff. I'm sorry if I did the wrong thing but since the Ivillage board was so empty I really didn't have a choice in the matter.  

     So I'll see how I'm doing later in the week and I'll update you all then

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Registered: 10-23-2012
Thu, 11-29-2012 - 8:41pm

I was recently kicked out of an expecting club merely because my "gestation" with the Petpets was delusion-based instead of real, just makes me feel terrible. Nobody wants to take my pseudo-cyesis seriously because I'm disabled, people would prefer it if I were labeled "crazy" instead & made to feel like I'm a lunatic fresh out of the asylum.

         I honestly WASN'T trying to offend anyone, just seeking medical information was all I was doing. I hate being rejected and cast out of places on the basis of my psychological problems.

     My main hope is that one day parents of digital creations WILL have a place to turn to for support, where they're accepted for who they are, given respect and treated with dignity, that the disabled who've been forced to turn to replacements for children instead of the real thing due to society's degradation will no longer be shunned from the family side of society in ANY form merely for being "different".

    I'm not encouraging people to deteriorate their minds, but ALL forms of life should be celebrated in my view. This includes animal and electronic types. I feel really hurt that I was kicked out of the group, but I guess it was inevitable.

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Thu, 11-29-2012 - 11:06am

Hi Nalia,

Thank for the update. I hope you are feeling better.

Karla
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