I don't want to complain or be negative
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|Mon, 08-20-2012 - 8:26pm|
..but I cannot help it. I have gained 50lbs in the last year. I am 37 and I always weighed around 170 give or take 10 lbs. I am only 4'11". I had started working out religiously two years ago and got down to under 160, which is still considered obese for my size. However I was getting fit and my cardiovascular endurance improved, I developed very good muscle tone from lifting weights and strong and flexible for my size from doing Yoga. I did Vinyasa Yoga which is a difficult form of Yoga. I got to the point where I could do every pose and follow the routine through completely. Even when I started I could do it, just not very well. I moved slowly or couldn't hold poses.
However now I've become so obese I cannot even do that. I can feel my body in ways I could not before. I can physically feel how big my thighs and stomach have gotten. It's such a disgusting feeling, especially the way my thighs rub together.
I get out of breath so easily. I don't even know or think I could walk to the corner of my street and back without my shins (sp?) hurting and being very out of breath. I know I have to start somewhere or nothing will change. I guess I just feel defeated because I have such a task ahead of me. It feels almost impossible. It's discouraging to think how long it will take me to get into good enough shape to be where I was 2 years ago when I was still obese and unhealthy.
I've gone from obese to super obese and now instead of going from obese to a healthy weight (which seemed very attainable) I'm going from very very obese to obese to maybe a healthy weight.
Sighs... please help me to help myself.