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|Fri, 05-24-2013 - 9:23pm|
Ok. So, I fell off the face of the planet. Sorry about that. Really didn't mean to. Started a new job in November (with variable insane hours), moved officially in December, and then nanny found a position in her field at the end of January leaving us to start DS in preschool before we planned. Trying to settle into the new place nad job and schedule and all.
Weight-wise things were going really well.
Over the last year I lost 30 of the 40# I wanted to lose and was feeling pretty good about where I was and wan't too concerned abotu the last 10#. Given everything that seemed the way to go since I tend to obscess about food and losing weight or obscess about what I want to eat. However, over the last year I felt like I was having a good run of just eating to satisfy my hunger without all the extras and cravings and such. The problem is I have no idea why. I lost the first 10# over a month when I was sick with starting a new BCP and when I could eat again I initially made a point to stick with the mini portions that I had been using to keep the nausea under control. I wasn't specifically depriving myself of type of food or quantity .... I just wanted less (though I ate the same kids of food which for me is an extremely varied diet). So for the last 6 months (since starting the new job, I have (don't hate me) effortlessly kept the weight off. I didn't lose that extra 10# but like I said I felt like it wasn't a huge deal (for frame of reference, in college when I feel I was in shape and a good weight I was about 5-10# below my current goal so about 15# below what I had gotten to). Ok, so over the last 2-4 weeks the weight has been creeping back.I am back up about 5# (consistently, not just a spot check) and my clothes are fitting tighter. I know I need to add working out into my routine though I figured at this point it was to get rid of the last 10#, and I really want to start hiking. The problem is I am very heat sensitive and we are almost at the time of year that I can't take anything too strenuous outside. My schedule definitely doesn't allow the gym. And home workout is difficult with a 3-year old and the fact that whenever I am home without him pesky things like bills take all my time.
I guess my biggest question is why all of a sudden do I want to eat continuously and poorly and the weight is coming back when it hasn't for 6 months!? (no I am not pregnant though that would be a happy reason for the weight gain but we are actively preventing ... and passively given my work schedule and the continuous cold that has been running through the house since DS started school :))
Thoughts, suggestions, explanations? I feel like if I understood why this was happening I might be able to come up with an action plan (or if I understood my success in the first place). I so don't want to be back where I was. I was feeling so great about my body even if it wasn't exactly where I wanted it! I have enough stress and depression in my life, I really don't want to add that back in. Maybe I need to get sick again (just kidding ... I can't stand nausea)!
Thanks for and thoughs or encouragement.