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|Sun, 12-30-2012 - 12:53pm|
It has been a long time since I've stopped by to say hello. First it was the board changes. Then it was just...the generall funk I have been in. I have not been in the best place, especially with the holidays.
This year has taught me a lot. I am not the same person I was a year ago. Anyhow, I have a different perspective for sure, having gone through what I did this year. But this board isn't really about that; it is about debt support. We are struggling with our journey out of debt. I think it is going to stay that way for awhile.
I went back to work at Kohls. I need to find something entirely different, and I am working on that. But I am also working on healing. It has been a ziggedy-zag kind of journey. Lots of ups and downs. A couple of things have brought me comfort. I have started making ornaments for other angel moms. I have organized a small group online and I have also started writing. I have really connected with the social worker in the palliative care at the children's hospital, and now I know that I must keep moving ahead and making sure that I get back to school and get my master's. I've never had such clarity as to what I should be doing with my life as I do now. When I make ornaments, or write poetry and share that with strangers, who become so much more than that, I am comforted in knowing that that is Maya continuing to make her mark on this world.
I hope to TTC in the upcoming months. Oh, this isn't going to help my debt journey!!! In the end, I have faith that we will be where we need to be.
Hey, I will total up my debt and make some goals for the New Year here in a couple of days. I just wanted to drop by and say hi/ I've missed this board...but for months, I couldn't even log in without error messages.
Looking forward to 2013!!