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|Sat, 12-08-2012 - 12:58am|
I'm back, I think. I've been gone because my personally life has been upside down. On the other hand, professionally I've been moving forward. In terms of debt, however, I've been moving backward. But now I'd like to reverse the tide.
For the upside down stuff -- I'm not sure how much I should say, and how comfortable you'd be as readers. After all, this is a family-oriented forum. I'd been wanting a bad girl, and I got her. Well, actually, no one can really have her, and it wasn't just one bad girl either. Financially all this was rather expensive. (No, I wasn't paying for sex, but the equipment costs, the medical costs, the wining and dining costs, and other stuff I don't want to get into...) But I was having lots of kinky sex. Do you know the Lucinda Williams song, "Essence"? It was like that. It was like I was getting called. The money issue aside, I'm not sure it was worth it, though -- I became pretty messed up emotionally because what I really want is love, and I wasn't getting that. Good thing I didn't catch anything.
That's one way to summarize it anyway. I told a friend about parts of it in some detail, and, greatly alarmed, she said if I want to keep my career, I will tell no one about it. I told another friend, and he said, wow, this is the sort of stuff you read about in erotica. I'll have to think a bit more about what I can share here, because these were rather complicated situations involving too many people.
I stopped keeping track of my spending, because it was just too depressing. I will start again. I haven't looked at my debt level in a while. So take turns whipping me with wet noodles, why don't you. On second thought, maybe you shouldn't...
But work is going OK. I have some new, strong graduate students, and they seem to like me. My enemies in the department have quieted down, but I think something new is about to start. I'm going to be a whistleblower, even though there isn't really confidentiality in academia. I can do that because I'm applying for a job somewhere else, though wherever I go is likely to pay less. I can't stand living here anymore. Getting out of debt will take longer.
I'm not sure I'm done with bad girls. Something about the crazy, smart ones really sets my heart pounding and my loins on fire. I am also developing stronger preferences about how I'd like them to dress.
I miss Kate. Has anyone heard from her recently? I'm worried about her.
Glad to see that time is moving forward as expected, Norma. Another week, another step towards freedom. How's your shoulder and your various ailments?
How are you babies, Karen & Jennifer?
How are you, kac? Hang in there.
Bex, have you been able to ride in this weather?