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|Wed, 04-17-2013 - 11:47pm|
Hi everyone, I have been on hiatus for a while because I am a little overwhelmed with life in general right now...
On the good side, I have made good progress with staying current on bills and paying off debts consistently. I have also been able to get a few more home improvement projects ticked off of my list.
On the more stressful side…
I have said this before, but I wanted to give a little background. I work for a local county as a residential real estate appraiser. I LOVE my work, but am grossly underpaid for all that I am required to do and my credentials. I applied for and received a new position within the office as a commercial appraiser. During several conversations, it was discussed that this would "probably" just be a lateral move. When they offered me the position, I accepted right away and kind of forgot to nail down the salary. I went back to my office and thought about it for a while and sent an email off to new boss asking if he might be able to use the move as leverage to increase my pay a little. That was seriously a BAD move on my part. I almost got and lost the job in less than an hour...Whoever said it never hurts to ask was very wrong in this case (I guess my timing was off). It made my supervisor's boss so mad he was ready to write me off right then. My new supervisor and I had a long chat and I felt about an inch tall when it was over :( I left work feeling awful Friday evening.
In addition to the work stressors, the two babies have run me through the ringer. They have collectively been hospitalized six times since September for a few different reasons. I feel like a failure as a mama because I can’t keep them fully healthy to save my soul :( I actually broke down on the pediatrician’s shoulder this weekend when the youngest was intubated after a severe seizure. I told him I felt like I must be doing something wrong...
Ok, so now to the point of my post...I have been in Grad school for my MBA since August 2012. I have almost completed 18 of my 36 hours required and I feel like I have lost my motivation. It seems like I am doing this all for nothing. I have sent out close to thirty resumes to various companies with about ten being very closely aligned with my desired career goals. I have heard about exactly 0 of these in the past 3 weeks. I have customized my resumes and designed individual cover letters for each one. My new supervisor even commented that I have an “impressive” resume. What is the point of all of this education and experience and work product if I can't even get a nibble in the real world??? I was ready to throw in the towel this weekend and unenroll for the Summer and Fall semesters when I got a call while I was in the PICU with the baby. It was from my school letting me know that I had been awarded the biggest fellowship/scholarship our department awards. Talk about the big man throwing me a curveball...I really thought that I was being directed to lay off the extra education/stress for a while with the new job’s learning curve and the baby getting sick.
So what would you do? Throw away the free money (maybe put off the degree for a year or so) or plow through and finish in May 2013? It really isn’t going to take much time away from the kiddos. I learned after the first semester how much we all could handle and have adjusted my schedules accordingly. Any MBA’s out there who find it invaluable to actually have the degree as opposed to just real world experience?
I know I kind of rambled, but your insight and advice is invaluable to me :) Thanks everyone.