cushings disease and guilt for harvey.

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Registered: 12-31-1969
cushings disease and guilt for harvey.
Tue, 08-21-2012 - 9:13am
My little Harvey was put to sleep 1 week ago today 13 minutes past 1 his heart stopped. He was only 8 the most beautiful Yorkshire terrier and I love him so much and the pain is unbearable, he had full blown cushings disease and had been on the drug to try to regulate it, I feel so guilty that I had put him through endless visit for tests...he hated the vets. His last 2 months were a roller coaster he improved but then secondry things would happen.he then damaged his crutiate ligament and was in pain ...more visits to the vets. Its the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, I just wanted him to mend, I feel guilty for being blind to his suffering, but I also feel guilty that he was only 8 and other dogs have gone on to live with cushings with the right dosage of drugs. I miss him so terribly I can't stop the tears I would do anything to go back and hug him one more time, will this pain ease? Was my decision the right one ?
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Registered: 04-19-2008
Sun, 08-26-2012 - 7:22pm

{{{^Harvey's^ Mom}}}  Welcome to our little corner of the web.  I'm so glad your precious ^Harvey^ (with his beautiful new ^wings^) guided you here, to be in the company of other grieving BridgeParents who truly understand your shattered heart. 

Oh Bev..... {{{gentle hugs}}} .... to answer your question .... Yes, you made the right decisions.  As heartbreaking as it is, your precious ^Harvey's^ sweet little body just couldn't tolerate the treatments.  Your beautiful boy was in pain... he was ready to earn his wings.  I have the feeling you could have jumped through all the hoops, but it was ^Harvey's^ time.  {{{hugs}}}  Oh Bev, you made the most loving decision any furmom must make.  You relieved ^Harvey^ from his tired little body, so he could run (pain free) on the Other Side.  It takes a strong and loving Mom to make that heartbreaking decision.  It shows me that you put your beloveds needs ahead of your own.  It's just so sad that once your precious furchild's pain ends .... your begins....

I hope you'll be able to stay with us during this long and painful journey.  Please know that we'll always be here for you, just as all our furangels are now with ^Harvey^ at the Rainbow Bridge.

Once again, please accept my sincere sympathy for the tragic passing of your precious furchild.  The world certainly became a little less bright, the day ^Harvey^ earned his beautiful new angel ^wings^.

With my heart,
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Registered: 05-05-2011
Sat, 09-22-2012 - 12:35pm
Please don't let that insidious feeling of guilt get a hold of you. You did everything you possibly do for Harvey and gosh knows if you let him go sooner, you would be feeling guilty about that too (asking yourself, what if?)
My darling Shiba (Bicky) also had passed away from Cushings disease...and exactly like you and Havey, we spent the last weeks of his life in a whirlwind of doctors's visits, clinging to to e hope that we could overcome this hurdle with a revolutionary treatment of medication for this nasty disease.
I realize now habit was all in vain...but I accept that we had no way of knowing that at the time.
Do your best to let go of the guilt and, instead, embrace the memories of love that you shared with Harvey. This is all part of the grieving process...