I loss my little angel Lacie.

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Registered: 01-30-2013
I loss my little angel Lacie.
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Wed, 01-30-2013 - 10:06am

On Saturday January 26th three days before her 16th Birthday I had to lay my little girl to rest, It was the second time I had to go through this terrible loss.  On December 27th 2010 I had to let my Cagney go and that was one of the hardest days of my life.  They had grown up together as our little Cagney and Lacie.  When I lost my Cagney I still had my little baby Lacie to keep me going but I was still devastated.  Lacie got sick a week before she died and it went fast.  Her kidneys were failing and then  came the seizures and we had to decide what to do.  When Cagney died I wished I would die to and now with Lacie gone I just want to crawl down and lay with them and die.  My life is as good as over with my two angels gone.  My son is taking Lacies death so very hard because she was his first dog and she did everything with him.  She slept with him every night and she waited for him to come home when he went out.  She got sick once before when he went away for a week but got better when he came home.  She adored my son and my son was the one who went to the vet and got them to give her a shot to put her out of her suffering but I feel it was way to hard on him because he thinks she looked at him and was asking him why he was doing this to her.   I feel so sorry for my son because my husband was suppose to go in to the doctors office and not my son but my husband made my son go in instead.  He is in so much pain and I am to.  To lose her is the worst thing in our life at this time because she would have been 16 on January 29th and we had to go to her gravesite and say happy birthday to her.  I do not know how I will be able to go on without my little angel.  I am dying inside from the pain and everyday it gets worse.

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Registered: 07-03-2012
Wed, 01-30-2013 - 2:57pm

Dear Roxe53,

I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you and your family are feeling. Let your son know how brave that was of him to free Lacie from her pain and suffering.  I'm still having a hard time with being the one who held our dog Chewie while they gave him that shot but I can tell you that the intense and unbearable pain will not always be constant. Someone told me that making that decision is one of the most selfless things you can do. I wish there was something else I could say to lessen your pain. I have found comfort on this message board and I hope you will too.

Sincerely,

Lisa

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Registered: 11-09-2010
Wed, 01-30-2013 - 4:08pm

Dear Roxe 53,

Reading your message was so heart breaking, and I really do feel for you and your son, our little ones bring so much joy to our lives, that when they have to leave it brings so much pain.You know when you have to do the right thing although it is sole destroying and you feel that you can't carry on. My heart is still vey heavy after recently making the same decision my little dog too was experiencing seizures which was devasting to watch.  Our little ones are now  free from pain, I hope you find  little comfort from this message and others.  You are so brave and our little ones know that too. Tina x

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Registered: 04-19-2008
Mon, 02-11-2013 - 12:50pm

{{{^Cagney^ and ^Lacie's^ Mom}}} How my heart breaks for you and your dear son. Please accept my sincere sympathy for the recent passing of your precious ^Lacie^. (with her beautiful new angel ^wings^) She is obviously a very special soul tohave touched your and your son's hearts so deeply. {{{gentle hugs}}}

Oh Roxe53, I truly understand the emptiness in your heart. Like you, when my ^Whisper^ needed to leave me, my life ended when his spirit crossed over. I honestly didn't know who I was anymore, and my reason for being on this planet was gone. Oh Roxe, this is such a long and painful journey. We all just have to take it one horrible day at a time.

I know there's absolutely nothing anyone can say to ease the pain in your hearts. But if it helps, please tell your son that the look on Lacie's face was not one of fear and confusion. She wasn't asking your son why he was helping her. The look on ^Lacie's^ face was one of love and concern, because she knew the two of you would be broken. {{{hugs}}} She was more worried for you, than of her spirit crossing over. Lacie knew that your son was giving her the greatest gift... to be free from the pain of her tired body. It's just so sad that once our beloved's pain ends... ours begins.

I hope you'll be able to stay with us, and let us know how you both are doing. Please know that we'll always be here for you, just as all our angels are now with ^Cagney^ and ^Lacie^ at the Rainbow Bridge.

With my heart,
Lin, Whisper's Mom
www.whisperintheheart.com

With my heart,