The loss of my Alex
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|Tue, 07-01-2014 - 8:34pm|
Today, my cat Alex died. It has been a week since he got sick from ingesting a painkiller. At first my husband and I took him to the vet and after shots and medication he seemed to be doing better. Unfortunately, on Saturday he got really worse and we had to take him to the emergency pet hospital. After several unsuccessful blood transfusions and other procedures to help stop his stomach bleeding we decided to euthanize him. It was not an easy decision to make. I saw how much pain my cat was going through and it broke my heart. The worst part about the whole process is that when we first got to the hospital the doctor told us that he would not survive the night. Despite the odds thanks to blood transfusion he made through the night and we were really happy. The next thing we got a call that he was collapsing again and we needed to do the second blood transfusion and prognosis was not promising. We decided to proceed and were relieved to find out that he made it through only to find him in pain again when we came to pick him up. The damage that has been done to his stomach was so severe that doing blood transfusions was like putting a band aid on. We considered surgery but the doctor said that most probably he would not make it through as he was extremely weak and unstable. I know that the decision to euthanize him was the right one, but it just hurts so much.
Alex has been with us only for 2 years but we became extremely attached to him. Since we do not have kids yet we treated him like a child. He was a loving little creature that did not do any harm to anyone. This accident with a pill was so unexpected and devastating that I do not know how I am going to cope with it. I miss him so much. My husband tries to be strong for me but I can see the pain in his eyes. I know that to some people grieving over the loss of a pet seems ridiculous, but they do not know what it truly feels like. Right now I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and I have a hole inside. Nothing seems to cheer me up. I know that it is going to get better with time, but I really do not seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I will greatly appreciate the advice on how to cope with this loss and become a little more optimistic.