The loss of my Alex

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Registered: 07-01-2014
The loss of my Alex
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Tue, 07-01-2014 - 8:34pm

Today, my cat Alex died. It has been a week since he got sick from ingesting a painkiller. At first my husband and I took him to the vet and after shots and medication he seemed to be doing better. Unfortunately, on Saturday he got really worse and we had to take him to the emergency pet hospital. After several unsuccessful blood transfusions and other procedures to help stop his stomach bleeding we decided to euthanize him. It was not an easy decision to make. I saw how much pain my cat was going through and it broke my heart. The worst part about the whole process is that when we first got to the hospital the doctor told us that he would not survive the night. Despite the odds thanks to blood transfusion he made through the night and we were really happy. The next thing we got a call that he was collapsing again and we needed to do the second blood transfusion and prognosis was not promising. We decided to proceed and were relieved to find out that he made it through only to find him in pain again when we came to pick him up. The damage that has been done to his stomach was so severe that doing blood transfusions was like putting a band aid on. We considered surgery but the doctor said that most probably he would not make it through as he was extremely weak and unstable. I know that the decision to euthanize him was the right one, but it just hurts so much.

Alex has been with us only for 2 years but we became extremely attached to him. Since we do not have kids yet we treated him like a child. He was a loving little creature that did not do any harm to anyone. This accident with a pill was so unexpected and devastating that I do not know how I am going to cope with it. I miss him so much. My husband tries to be strong for me but I can see the pain in his eyes. I know that to some people grieving over the loss of a pet seems ridiculous, but they do not know what it truly feels like. Right now I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and I have a hole inside. Nothing seems to cheer me up. I know that it is going to get better with time, but I really do not seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I will greatly appreciate the advice on how to cope with this loss and become a little more optimistic.

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Wed, 07-02-2014 - 9:49am

I am so very sorry for your loss. {{{hugs}}} It's always hard when a pet leaves us and it can hurt even more when their time with us was limited. I hope you're able to find peace soon.

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Wed, 07-02-2014 - 11:58am
Than you so much. I hope it will get better with every day
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Wed, 07-02-2014 - 12:59pm

Oh I'm so sorry for the loss of your cat. We lost our Henry a few years ago. He had leukemia. He was 4. It does get better but it took us a long time to stop expecting him to pop up in his favorite spots. (((gentle hugs))) 

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Wed, 07-02-2014 - 7:58pm

Hugs your way

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Thu, 07-03-2014 - 12:16pm

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how difficult this must be for you especially given the circumstances. I have 4 cats and one of my cats somehow got a hold of my daughter's seizure medication and swallowed a couple of pills. We rushed him to the vet and he had to stay for several days and was treated for poisoning. It was so scary but our cat made it. I know how worried and sick we all were about it so my heart really goes out to you over what happened to Alex. {{hugs}}

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Thu, 07-03-2014 - 4:33pm

Thank you so much. It really means a lot that there are people out there that truly understand. Many of my co-workers think that I am crazy to grieve over ""just a cat" as they say. "You can always get another one!". They do not understand that a pet is not an article of clothing or a piece of furniture in your house that you can substitute. Even if you open your heart to another animal (which I am not ready for anytime soon), it will not be the same.

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Registered: 04-19-2008
Thu, 07-03-2014 - 7:00pm

Dear ^Alex's^ Mom,
Welcome to our little corner of the web.  I'm so happy your beloved ^Alex^ (with his beautiful new angel ^wings^ guided you here to be in the company of other grieving BridgeParents who truly understand your unbearable heartache.

Oh Tanyashvets, I just can't wrap my brain around everything you, ^Alex's^ Dad, and ^Alex^ had to endure over the past few days.  {{{gentle hugs}}}  I know your beloved was fighting with all his might to stay with you, but sadly, science wasn't enough.  :(  But please, please, please know you did the right thing.  You released sweet ^Alex^ from his struggle, setting him free from the prison of his body.  Oh Tanya, it takes a strong and loving soul to put the needs of your beloved before your own.  I know ^Alex^ will love you forever for having the strength to release him from his pain.

You don't have to convince me about how other people treat our broken hearts.  Sadly, most people just don't get it.  But for us ..... a part of our soul, our heart has been ripped away.  This all feels like a horrible nightmare, and no one has the power to wake us up.

I hope you'll be able to stay with us, and let us know how you and your dear hubby are doing.  Please be kind to your shattered hearts.  We all just have to take it one horrible day at a time.  But please know that we will always be here for you, just as all our ^beloveds^ are now with ^Alex^ at the Rainbow Bridge. 

With gentle hugs for your aching heart,
Lin, Whisper's Mom
www.whispersmom@earthlink.net

With my heart,
 
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Fri, 07-04-2014 - 1:48pm
Thank you so much. It really means a lot.