Lost my presious baby Scamper Puss

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Lost my presious baby Scamper Puss
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Thu, 03-27-2003 - 7:07pm
Yestterday was 1 month since it happened. The night from hell when I called for Scamper Puss once and then twice. I should have known that if he didn't show up after the second call to go looking. Well I did but it was awhile after that. I live in an apartment complex that I've lived in for 13 years because it was off the main road, safe for the cats or so I thought. we had 9 cats and they all would be hard to deal with but none as hard as this little baby. He was only 1 1/2 years old. He just came walking in when I opened the door in December. He was only 2 months old. I was going to find a home for him (I didn't want to) but my one friend took him and returned him because of the stressful time of year. Another freind was waiting untill his winter break from work and was going to keep him inside! This baby would jump up to the door knob and try to open the door and if that didn't work he'd just hang there. This was difinately an outdoor cat (not to mention that by then I had fallen in love with him and become his MaMa) as are all of our cats. Anyway I got into my Jeep and went on my little route that I always go when someone doesn't show up in time. As I was about to turn onto the road I saw somthing in the gutter to the left. So I took a left (like I always do) and stoped-I got out and saw that it was a cat but I didn't think it looked like my baby then I looked down to see his collar and then his tag!!! My heart dropped. My fist tought was how do I move him he could have internal injuries. With a closer look I saw that he was dead. I picked him up - drove back home where my Mom (his grandmother)was looking for him too. I handed him over to my Mom and dropped to my knees hysterical saying not my little baby boy! We then took turns holding him for a couple of hours (my Mom though to rock him I wish I did) I just held him in disbelief and cried and cried. I still just don't understand how a God could let this happen. We could have dealt with any one (except one) but not this preious baby boy. I didn't know that he went to the road. He didn't have a reflextor on and they quit making those tags that have reflextion on the back. He did so many cute things. We've been writing them down. I take his ern to bed with me and set him on my night stand. I hold him on my heart and cry every night and sometimes just whenever it hits me. I loved this cat sooooo much I would have stood in the road to protect him if I could have just been there. Did he wait thinking Mommy and Grandma will come and get me? Was he cold? Did he come running accross the street without looking becaue MaMa was calling? I just don't know how to live without him and my Mother isn't doing much better, if any. I have M.S. and she is my care giver and lives right next door. So Scamper Puss would go from one apartment to the other all day. He delighted in everything. We had put the old cat tree on the back pourch and he wanted to climb it so bad that sometimes we'd let him and just fix the plastic after. We kept telling him that we were going to get a much better one and he would love it. Well we got a great one! but he only got to enjoy it for about 2 weeks if all of that. Grandma would feed all the kids wet food (very high quaility as is the dry) in the morning and he could not wait for his-he had his spot and would reach up as to say hurry Grandma I want my breakfast. The only way you could hold him was like a baby. We'd do that and then kiss him from both sides he would let us do that all day if we would. He looked like a little bob cat with a 2 inch tail that was always up and would look like a pom pom with the hair that would fall over it. The way he loved me was to nuzzle his nose into my hair-kneed my neck and then just fall asleep. If I was on the couch he would come up behind and do the same thing. Oh how I miss the feeling of his little body and feet on my back when I take a nap or go to bed. There are a million stories like these. I just don't know how I'm ever going to get over this one. We've had some really special cats before but no Scamper Puss. Not to say my heart hasn't been broken several times before but part of me died with him on that road that night. I will never be the same. I keep hoping that he'll come back to me since he was so young. I can always have that hope and prayer it's all I have to hang onto. Sorry the letter is so long and that I can't spell. I have a hard time being concise. It has to do with the M.S.

Thanks for listening I know I'll think of a million things that I wished I wrote when I send this letter but they're all in my broken heart.

Thanks

Tamara

Edited 3/29/2003 3:54:56 PM ET by redfeline1


Edited 3/29/2003 5:55:56 PM ET by redfeline1

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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 1:16am
(((^Scamper Puss'^ Mom)))

Oh Tamara, as I read your post through tears I wished that I could turn back the clock for you......put your beautiful baby back in your arms as he was a month ago before the terrible accident that took him to Rainbow Bridge.

The horror you felt as you found him, the terrible grief and heartache you and his Grandma are going through......I am so, so sorry. ^Scamper Puss^ knows that you would have given your own life to save his. (((Tamara))) my heart goes out to you as you learn to go on, one day at a time without your precious boy beside you as he used to be.

^Scamper^ is now a very special angel who will watch over you and your Mom for the rest of your days.....he will still make those visits back and forth between your apartments, checking on both of you and doing his best to let you know that he will love you forever....just as you will love him forever.

Please accept my deepest sympathy on the passing of your very special kitty (((^Scamper Puss^))) I hope you'll share more stories about him......as your heart allows. And maybe the story of Rainbow Bridge will bring you some comfort during this terribly sad time.....

'Mo's Mom Carol

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RAINBOW BRIDGE

Just this side of Heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food and water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they miss someone very special to them who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. The bright eyes are intent, the eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to break away from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

YOU have been spotted and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face, your hands again caress his beloved head and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you pass over Rainbow Bridge together....

(Author unknown)



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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 5:13am
Oh (((Tamara))), ^Scamper Puss's^ mom, my heart is just breaking after reading about the tragic loss of your sweet boy (((hugs))). Although there is not much anyone can say to help, please know that you have my deepest sympathies as you go through this horrible time.

It is always awful to lose a furbaby, no matter what the circumstances, but sometimes it really does seem so very unfair that one is taken...I know your heart is struggling so much to try to make sense out out of this...the only thing I can think of is that heaven must have needed a very special kitty and that is why your ^Scamper^ was chosen.

I understand what you mean in that all of our furkids are so very special and our hearts break anytime one earns their wings....but.....every once in a great while one comes along that is so very special that life without doesn't seem possible. That's how my ^Murph^ was to me. When he died I remember thinking that I could survive losing any of my furkids, but not him. Not that I don't love my others deeply b/c I do...but ^Murph^ was different...he was part of me and as you have said, when ^Murph^ died, a big part of me died also.

(((Tamara))), as hard as it is to believe right now, you will get through this - it will not be easy, certainly not pleasant, and never will there be a day when you won't ache for your ^Scamper Puss^...but, very slowly, he will show you signs that will let you know he is doing ok, but that he has not and never will forget you or your mom. He will always be close by, watching over you and sending healing kisses for your broken hearts. Learning to go through each day without him, missing all of the things that held him so dear to you will be the hardest thing you will ever do. But you are not alone. Everyone here knows the awful pain and emptiness...and understands how your whole life and heart has been ripped apart. We are here for you(((hugs))).

Lighting a candle for you ^Scamper Puss^.....

(((Hugs))) of comfort,

Lori(murphsmom)

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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 12:57pm
((Tamara)), my thoughts and prayers are with you as you struggle with your grief over your darling Scamper Puss - I just lost my own sweet kitty ^Furry^ 2 days ago and am still dealing with the pain, I know exactly what you are going through and it is overwhelming more often than not - But, as others on the board have already written to you so beautifully, keep this constant in your mind: that your sweet furbaby always knew how much you loved him and knew you would do absolutely anything to keep him safe, and that he still loves you with all his heart and knows how lucky he was to have you as his devoted mommy.
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 2:45pm
Thank you so much for taking your time and effort to comfort me and my Mom. The poem is nice and I belive it too. I've never put anything on a board so I'm not sure what all I'm suppose to do. We also held him for hours after picking him up. My Mom was rocking him (I didn't think of that) I just held him and cried and cried. We took turns. again Thanks so much we really appreciate it.

My select an emoticon keeps coming out with a smile when I click unhappy. I'll try it again on this page.


Edited 3/28/2003 5:23:06 PM ET by redfeline1
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 2:51pm
I'm so sorry that you have been going though this as well. Thank you so much for taking time and energy out of your day to reply to my letter. It's helping me to process though the pain, as well as I can right now. I wish I could say somthing to make you feel better. Even knowning we will be with our babies again, that doesn't help much right now. Thanks again


Edited 3/28/2003 5:16:25 PM ET by redfeline1
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 3:04pm
Two days ago the pain you must be in. I too know what you are going though. Thank-you for taking time out of your own very deep pain to help me with mine. My prayers are with you as well. We also held him for hours right after picking him up my Mom thought to rock him I wish I had thought of that but I just held him in disbelief and cried. I'm sorry you are going thought the same overwelming pain. Again thanks


Edited 3/28/2003 5:26:34 PM ET by redfeline1
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 3:49pm
I felt compelled to re write this since I look like an idiot. I'm not a very patience person and oviously didn't do a very good job previewing my messages. My Mother also suggested that I do this because once again I look like an idiot. I'll just correct what I messed up.

Thank you so much for taking your time and effort to comfort me and my Mother. The poem is nice and I believe it too. We also held him for hours after picking him up. Sorry for the screw ups.

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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 4:49pm
{{{^Scamper Puss' Mom}}} Oh Tamara... {{{Hugs}}} how my heart breaks for you and your Mom. I wish I had answers for why things happen the way they do.... but apparently, your precious ^Scamper Puss^ was a very 'chosen' angel on earth. He was with you and his Grandma for such a short time.... but in that time, he taught you all about love. (that's our angel's mission on earth)

Oh Tamara... please know that your beloved angel is now at the Rainbow Bridge, surrounded by all our furkids. There, they will teach him about those bulky new wings, and the best viewing spots from the Heavens, where he can watch over the Mom and Grandma he loves with all his heart. {{{Hugs}}}

My heart just broke, when you described rocking your beloved ^Scamper Puss^. Oh Tamara.... what a wonderful Mom you are. Your sweet furbaby was lucky to have such a loving family. {{{Hugs}}}

And.... please, please don't worry about how you sound on the board. Gosh, when I first lost my Whisper, I couldn't think straight if my life depended upon it. Oh Tamara, your heart has been shattered...... so please go ahead and just speak/write whatever is in your heart. We all understand. {{{Hugs}}}

Once again, please accept my deepest sympathy for the passing of your beloved ^Scamper Puss^, and please know that Heaven just became a better place, when he earned his wings.

With my heart, Lin (Whisper's Mom)

With my heart,
 
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 5:07pm
((^Scamper Puss's^ mom)) I am so sorry about your precious ^Scamper Puss^, how terribly difficult that night must have been for you. ((You)) are in so much pain right now. Try not to be to hard on yourself, your ^Scamper Puss^ was a very lucky kitty to have such a caring mommy.

It's very difficult right now, it's only been 2 short months since I lost my ^Sav^, so I know how terribly painful it is. But eventually there will be smiles of your beautiful ^Scamper Puss's^ memory through the tears.

Big giant hugs!!!

Shann

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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 7:51pm
Lighting a candle for sweet (((^Scamper Puss^))) a beloved angel. (((Tamara))), I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you...(((hugs)))...your poor heart just must be broken without your sweet kitty by your side. I am sure that his heart is still with you, the love that you share is still there, linking your spirits together forever.

With heartfelt sympathy,

Barbara ^Frosty's^ Mommy


Gibby and Frosty's Mom

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