Moby's Gone

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Moby's Gone
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Tue, 02-16-2010 - 11:40am

Moby, a golden retriever, my my first dog. I did not get my first dog until I was 38.

I loved him to death - I never wanted kids, so my dogs are my 'family'.

When Moby died on Saturday from Lyme Disease, that was the hardest day of my life - I think I have cried more for him than I did for my dad, three years ago - I hope that doesn't make me a bad person.

I know a lot of people have been kind to me since Saturday and have told me that I gave him a good life and everything, and I know about the Rainbow Bridge piece of writing, but at this stage, those things do not comfort me - why is that? They are supposed to...

At this point, all I want is Moby back.

It's weird, I have three other dogs, whom I love to pieces, but now with the big hole in the 'pack', the other dogs don't seem the same to me, with Moby gone - is that normal? will I ever love my other doggies again, as much as I loved them with Moby still here?

Julie

P.S. I wish to extend my condolenses to the others here who have lost pets, too. I know I am not alone, and I just wanted to let you know that although I don't know you, I feel your pain - xoxo

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In reply to: gobfuse
Tue, 02-16-2010 - 1:32pm

I can't give you much in the answers, as I am dealing with this as well - very fresh for me.



 BabyFruit Ticker

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Tue, 02-16-2010 - 2:07pm

Hi Julie,


I'm so sorry for your loss. I feel you pain,I know just how you're feeling . 5months ago(yesterday was 5months) I had to put my "son" to sleep. He was 16years old,he was my bud, he was by my side every single day of his life. Up until the day he passed we had only spent 1 day apart, now here I am without him by my side for the past 5months.


Does it make you a bad person because you have cried more for your pup then your dad?, well if it does make you a bad person ,you're not alone. I lost my brother May of 2007, I lost my dad Jan 2001 and I can sit here and tell you I have never felt such grief and sadness and loss from any other loss in my life then when Barkley passed away.


bottom line is,,Grief is Grief


You question if its normal that the other dogs don't seem the same and will you ever be able to love your other dogs again,,Of course you will. Nothing seems the same to you now. You are still in shock, everything will be upside down for you now .. only time and healing will make your life make sense again.


I am on 5months and my life still makes no sense, nothing nor no on matters to me any longer. I am just going thru the motions and my only goal is to get through the day .


You will never get over the loss of Moby, but you will get through it.


all we can do now is learn how to go through the rest of our life without our "pups" by our side.


You said that the things you thought would comfort you are not and you wonder why.. Nothing you read, nothing anyone can say to you at this point will help , you are grieving. plain and simple ,you have lost a very important "person" in your life, only time can heal our wounds. Seeing light at the end of this long and sad and lonely tunnel will only take time.


Just try and take care of yourself. take it one day at a time.


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In reply to: gobfuse
Wed, 02-17-2010 - 6:26am

Julie


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Sun, 02-21-2010 - 2:37pm

{{{^Moby's^ Mom}}}

With my heart,