** BridgeMom's Day **

I could not post a response on Mothers Day, It was so very hard,I miss my Sunny so much-4 months ago was the last time I hugged her and kissed her and told her over and over again how much I love her and will miss her terribly. I just wanted to sleep through Mothers day. We have no 2 legged Chdn.I am totally in a fog without my Sunny.I don't know how I am going to get through Mon.the 19th, that is Sunny's birthday she would have been 13 years old. I can't go to her grave there is none,I could not keep the ashes,I would be looking at them and even feeling more guilty than I already am that I had to put her to sleep, and now all she is ashes. How do I get through this,I will never,ever get over losing Sunny!!!!! I don't want to spoil my Husband's long weekend or friends,BUT all I want is to have Sunny back, give her LOTS and LOTS of XXXX and OOOOO, play with her in the yard, go for walks,buy her lot's of presents that she always had every year,every holiday,give her treats,have quite comforting talks. Sunny not here for me to do that,I'm her Mom--suppose to be their for her and take care of her. As much as 2 vets told me that day,Joanne you have to do something Sunny is not well at all--WELL I didn't have to do it that day why did I not wait???It is so hard for me to keep all this in its proper perpective when my heart is so full of love for my Sunny Bunny,my head was/is not working right. I feel I am just rambling on ,but this is the only place I feel I can reach out to people who know and care what is going on. I am so lost without Sunny!!Sunny won't be having a special people food birthday dinner,lot's of toys & treats,kisses and hugs. The thought of this as her birthday get closers makes me so very,very sad,there is just not enough words to decribe my feelings.