Fired last week - Feel like my life is done
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|Tue, 02-26-2013 - 2:18pm|
I need help. I was fired, quite unexpectedly, last week, told that 'my performance was no longer a good fit for her team' and 'I didn't have product knowledge she was comfortable with.' I don't want to go into War and Peace, so I'll try to summarize briefly.
5 months ago, 'anonymous' employee survey results were released and discussed with our division. I had noted, in my survey, that my supervisor was extremely difficult to get specific direction from, as well as to just get ahold of (She's in a different city and I didn't work directly with her.) If you were in her local office, you got plum assignments. If you weren't, just depending on how interested she was in your project.
Two hours after the department meeting, I was called into a one-on-one with her,. and was given a verbal warning on my 'lack of productivity', and my 'lack of communication.' I was floored. I went to the bathroom, where another member of my team was crying - she,too, had been critical of our boss in the survey for similar things, and turned out she was also given a 'warning.
My boss moved me to another department to help out, where my coworkers in that department praised me, and I know made mention to my boss how pleased they were with me. A month ago, I was told that I had to give a presentation to her to demonstrate my product knowledge. Never told my job would hinge on her satisfaction with it, never given any written second warnings...I just figured it had something to do with which project she would place me on.
I worked on the project, ran it by two senior members of my team who gave it high praise. I presented it to my boss two weeks ago. She gave me no indication of her satisfaction, questions - she simply said she had some 'notes' she would discuss with me later.
A week passes, and she set up a meeting with me over the phone. I call her, and am told I dont' have the product knowlege...blah blah blah, and I'm terminated, effective immediately.
I am still in shock. I got laid off 4 years ago from a job I'd held for 9 years (mass layoff - not much I could have done.), and took short term contract jobs until I found this one. And now, I'm out the door - and I don't even know what I did wrong. I feel like my work life is over - I was a week shy of being there a year, so I didn't qualify for severance. I'm just so scared and lost right now, and I don't even know what I honestly did wrong: I was never given a specific instance of anything I screwed up. I had no idea I was that close to the chopping block, so I couldn't get the IM's she ignored/meeting requests she never responded to off my work computer.
I just have no idea how I'm supposed to go back into the workforce as 'damaged goods.' I feel like a complete failure, and now, no health insurance to even try and seek counseling. I just want to disappear.
My fiance is working and is very supporting, but I feel worthless. I feel like a giant failure, and I don't even know what I did wrong to get fired, so I can't correct it.
Advice is desperately needed.