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|Sun, 01-20-2013 - 8:57pm|
I've been having a very tough few months at my job and I'm trying to figure out what to do to make things better. To begin, I'm a teacher. I've been teaching for 18 years, the past 11 have been in the same grade and school. My school is not the place it was when I first began there. Moral feels terrible and I feel as though my colleagues are always trying to out do eachother or act as though one's idea is better than another person's idea. There has been a change in leadership since my first few years at my school and there has also been a turnover with staff. I hate to say this but some of the younger teachers act as though they are entitled and that there ideas are best. I've always thought of myself as someone who is open to trying new things in the classroom and as someone who is a team player. This has been a tough year for me. I do have a tough class this year-many children with behavioral issues. This makes the job hard and exhausting, however, what makes it more difficult is that I really can't stand several of my colleagues. I left work so angry on Friday and I'm having a hard time letting go of this anger. It's just multiple things that have built up. I really hate this attitude of people thinking they are better than everyone else. I will admit, I'm sensitive and tend to take things personally when I shouldn't. I just work with some people who are rude and unprofessional. I'm not one to talk about it, instead I let it all build up and become very angry (not sharing that anger with anyone though). My husband says that I shouldn't let it get to me. He's right but I don't think he totally gets it. Teaching is very isolating. I'm in my classroom all day and if I did not go to the teachers room for lunch, I probably wouldn't have contact with any other adults during the day. Don't get me wrong, I do have colleagues at work that are my friends. They see the same stuff that I see, but they must be tougher than me because they are not wasting the energy that I am getting so worked up about things that some of these woman say/do. So...choices...I have some options-I can take a deep breath, go to work each day and try my hardest not to let these people get to me, I can go to work and feel the way I do now (not the option I want to chose), I can put in for a transfer to another school (something I've thought about a lot lately). I've gone as far as meeting with the assistant superintendent about transfering. I do have a very good rapport with her and though I'd like to eventually transfer to another grade, I feel like right now my reasons for transferring are more due to the people that I work with than being ready to move up. Has anyone else felt just sort of fed up with colleagues? What did you do? How did you get past it? I'm just so tired of going to work and feeling so angry. I think I need to change something...stop letting the nonsense get to me. Is transferring the answer? Or is that just running away? Just want to feel better at work and I'm looking for a way to get there.
Thanks for reading. Hope I made some sense.