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|Fri, 08-17-2012 - 5:53pm|
Thanks in advance for reading about my frustration and seeminlgy unsolveable dilemma. I have had it with the job search. I have spent the past year and a half dealing with stress resulting from filing bankruptcy, not being able to pay my bills, not having a car, and having a part time job that pays less than $8.50. I am employed, however part time, and it has been impossible for me to make ends meet on this trivial and jokeable wage from the 80's. You see, I work in retail as a merchandiser. The job is all very well pleasant and sometimes fun, but I have got to get out. I am constantly applying online sending resumes to employers with no calls In the last year, I have had 4 interviews that have resulted in nothing. I am wondering if my credit status has anything to do with me not getting any job offers. I have a college degree in Education, and I am again pursuing a teaching position after being out of the field since 1998, and so far no calls. I own a condo that has been put into foreclosure. After a year of trying to get a loan modification, I was finally offered a "trial modification" for 3 months to see if I can acutally make a mortgage payment. I also have a condo fee that I struggle with every month, let alone other expenses. My boyfriend lives with me and he gives me $500 a month in rent that I put toward the expenses. I am living on the edge knowing I will not have the money to pay my bills, He has helped me with my bankruptcy and other things, but he's not supporting me and I don't want to be supported.
I am just SO frustrated with my life. I don't really enjoy anything anymore, and I feel like I am going to be stuck in this dead end situation for the rest of my life. I rarely get sick, but this past Sunday I came down with an upper respiratory infection that caused me to miss 4 days of work. Just what I need. The job that I do can be physically demanding, and I think I have just overworked myself to the point of getting sick. I don't really have any connections when it comes to job networking. I cannot go through another year of this hell and frustration trying to make ends meet. I should be able to support myself, and make enough money to pay my mortgage and fee which together totals about $839 a month. I feel pathetic. It seems that there is no light at the end of this tunnel. I try to stay positive, but it's very difficult when I send out resumes with not one call back.I know that many others are dealing with the same things, but I feel like I am the only one...or it's just that other people hide things really well.