Suicidally depressed over a low GPA

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Registered: 12-20-2013
Suicidally depressed over a low GPA
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Fri, 12-20-2013 - 8:56pm

 I am so depressed about my undergrad GPA that I feel like ending my life. I am graduating from college with my Bachelor's degree in Anthropology next semester. My cumulative GPA is only 2.5 because I had below a 2.0 during my freshman and sophomore years. However, I had a 3.8 during my senior year. Unfortunately, there is nothing I can do now to change the past. I cry every second wishing that I could go back in time and study harder in college. I lost interest in everything, stay alone in my room all the time, and didn't go out for like six months. I would be interested in working for a museum, a historical society, an archaeological research center, a primate conservation center, or a national park. I live in NYC. I am passionate about human and primate evolution, osteology, population genetics, Mesoamerican archaeology, Viking archaeology, and the archaeology of ancient China. I think that I ruined my future and I will never be able to get an entry-level job or get into a Masters program. Most employers ask for college transcripts and no one will hire someone who graduated with a 2.5. I don't want to end up stuck in retail or flipping burgers. Do you think that my life is over because of bad grades in the past? I am so tired of being stressed out and worried about my future that sometimes I feel like jumping off a bridge.

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Registered: 05-08-2006
Fri, 12-20-2013 - 9:11pm
In real life, your college grades do not matter nearly as much a s the lessons you learned along the way. You have a great story to tell...how as you went along in college, you realized how important studying was, you learned how to study, and you applied those lessons. I have managed thousands of people in good jobs, and I do not know what a single one of their GPAs were. Your life is not ruined. You may have to work harder to 'sell' yourself...you might need some work experience to get into graduate school...but remember this...half the doctors (and you can apply this to any type of education) graduated in the bottom half of their class. Bill Gates dropped out of college. If you are feeling suicidal, call the Samaritans, tell a freind or family member, go to an emergency room. Whether you feel it right now or not, you are a loved person with something to contribute to the world...deppression is a real illness and can be treated. You can be helped and you can have a wonderful and fulfilling life. If I could put one thought in young people's heads it is that the way things are now is not how they will be forever....please get the help you need. Best wishes
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Registered: 05-08-2006
Fri, 12-20-2013 - 9:12pm
In real life, your college grades do not matter nearly as much a s the lessons you learned along the way. You have a great story to tell...how as you went along in college, you realized how important studying was, you learned how to study, and you applied those lessons. I have managed thousands of people in good jobs, and I do not know what a single one of their GPAs were. Your life is not ruined. You may have to work harder to 'sell' yourself...you might need some work experience to get into graduate school...but remember this...half the doctors (and you can apply this to any type of education) graduated in the bottom half of their class. Bill Gates dropped out of college. If you are feeling suicidal, call the Samaritans, tell a freind or family member, go to an emergency room. Whether you feel it right now or not, you are a loved person with something to contribute to the world...deppression is a real illness and can be treated. You can be helped and you can have a wonderful and fulfilling life. If I could put one thought in young people's heads it is that the way things are now is not how they will be forever....please get the help you need. Best wishes
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Registered: 11-13-2008
Mon, 12-23-2013 - 9:06am

Please don't lose hope!!  I didn't have a great GPA either, and to be honest, I couldn't even tell you what that was so many years later.  I had a rough couple of years as well, but it really doesn't matter once you get that diploma.  I've learned more since getting my first job than I ever did in college, your GPA will not define the rest of your life.  You will find a job that will fit with your passions, you are in the best location for it as well.

From what you posted, it sounds like you have dealt with depression.  Please talk to your doctor or a therapist.  There is no shame at all, we all need help from time to time.  I've dealt with anxiety and depression before myself, you are not alone.  I wanted to pass along some numbers for you as well:

  • National Mental Health Association 1-800-273 TALK (8255)

Sending you lots of (((HUGS))), please keep us posted on how you are doing.