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Thu, 08-05-2004 - 6:16pm
Hi All

I have posted this on the EA board and then found this one which seems more fitting.

last night I did something that I am terribly ashamed of and realise I need help as my situaition is getting out of hand.

My husband and I have been together for 9 years now and I have suffered both physical and mental abuse for the last 7. The first time he was physically violent to me 7 years ago I actually left him and went into a Womens refuge, but unfortunately took him back. Its a long story since then so I wont bore you with all the details. Over the last few months we have been rowing and he has left on numerous occasions and I always take him back as he promises to change.

The past few rows have escalated into him being very physical towards me and last nite after we had both been for a night out I took the worst beating so far. Lately each one is becoming more aggresive. He decided to leave last night again but came back for his flask and I threw it at him and it missed and I have now become the proud owner of a smashed kitchen window.

I am so embarissed at my behaviour and cant believe that I have done it. We were rowing so bad that the kids woke up and my eldest actually witnessed me breaking the window. I know what I did was wrong and feel physically sick because of my behaviour. I am sure the neighbours heard and am too scared and embarissed to face them.

i know in time he will be back with false promises but this time i need to end it not just for me but for the children to. I am also scared of being on my own despite our rows and the violence. I know its not going to be easy as I do still love him! but would like some advice on getting through this so I don't take him back again.

Thanks for listening

Amanda





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Registered: 11-12-2003
In reply to:
Thu, 08-05-2004 - 6:31pm

Hi Amanda and welcome -


I'm going to take a stab and guess you're across the pond (if you're not, I apologize).

CL-Blueliner4