after the trauma......
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| Sun, 07-02-2006 - 6:30pm |
Hello everyone.....I need to know how to deal with the after-effects of being mentally, emotionally and physically abused for many years. I am in a safe place in life right now, healing and helping myself remember who I really am and gaining strength everyday. (Thanks to wonderful friends that came crawling out of the woodwork once I asked for their help...love to them.....)
I want to know how a person deals with the night terrors.....for example, dreaming I was being choked, seeing H face, hearing him ask if I was 'ready to die B*#%@' and then waking up just as I was passing out in the dream. Or getting over the panic attacks I got recently when speaking to my new boss during training and my mind went blank on questions I knew the answer to but felt as if I was being grilled like my H used to and was fearful that my response would provoke an attack. Is this something that will fade with time and my self-worth improves? I left work almost in tears because I KNEW the answers to the questions but I felt the exact fear deep down I felt with my H when he was wanting the 'perfect' answer or all h*#+ would break loose.I tried to communicate the next day with my new boss.....which is the first male boss I have had in forever about my issue but I can't come out and tell him just how bad. Luckily I passed the test the next day and am moving forward but what can I do to keep these things from overtaking my life??
Thanks for any words of comfort you can give me.........
| Sun, 07-02-2006 - 8:20pm |
