Am I Crazy to...Hope?
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Am I Crazy to...Hope?
| Mon, 08-15-2005 - 12:34pm |
Okay so this weekend was more than I ever expected. What started over his opening my mail turned into my laying it all on the line. I guess I just snapped. The thing that shocked the heck out of me was his reaction. I was pretty brutal and straight to the point. I didn’t sugar coat it or cry. What shocked me is that he just sat there and listened. He never yelled or got angry. I know that everyone says that an abuser never changes. Things may get better for a little while but they always go back to the way they were. He told me he didn’t realize I was so unhappy. He asked why I never said anything until now. I told him that I get nervous about how he will react. He cried and asked what I wanted to do to make things better. He would do whatever I asked because he doesn’t want to lose the kids or me. He agreed to goto counseling and take anger management classes. I told him that if his actions go back to the way they were we would leave. He agreed and the rest of the weekend was actually nice. I know that I can’t get all excited and think that everything will be rainbows and flowers now. I will not back down or lose sight of what brought me to all of this. I will be strong and not back down. You just can’t help but at least give him one chance to make a change. Has anyone else been here? Did things ever really change? Is there any hope at all? I know they are few and far between but ultimately don’t we all want things to work out? Do we ever go into a marriage and say, well if it doesn’t work it’s no big deal I’ll just move on? Am I the only one who is willing to give them the opportunity to change?

There is nothing wrong in wanting to be hopeful.
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Honey, these were the biggest crocodile tears this man could muster.
CL-Blueliner4