Am waiting for the callback for my appt -

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Registered: 05-10-2012
Am waiting for the callback for my appt -
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Mon, 09-10-2012 - 4:47pm

Seems the hospital I work at has an advocate in house.   Wow.   The referral has been made, just waiting for them to call with a date and time!

Since I am not in danger, I feel almost giddy with relief that maybe I can really work thru some stuff that's just been dragging me down for over 6yrs.   When I mentioned the diagnosis of bipolar and not being sure if it's really what's going on...the lady mentioned PTSD and how similar some of the symptoms were.

Please, let me not be bipolar.   Let this therapy help me find my way back to some normalcy (what that is, I have no idea!)

Gonna spend some time checking out PTSD and abuse...

Thank you all soo much.   Just taking one positive step feels amazing.

 

ETA - I would like your permission to allow my son (and possibly my other older kids) to read the thread I originally posted.

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Registered: 02-28-2001
Mon, 09-10-2012 - 5:10pm
hth, this is a public forum, therefore, permission to share with whomever you choose is not required from us. However, because this is considered a "Safe Place" for victims and survivors of DV, we ask that you only share it with others who are very supportive of you and what you are trying to do. If there is any question at all as to whether or not they can keep this site "private", give a great deal of thought to sharing it. In the past, abusers have tracked their victims here and it has caused problems. Hence, we are very careful about sharing with others. But I have no problem personally with you sharing this with your children at all, if it will help them to understand and be more supportive of you and your journey.

I'm guessing that your hospital has what is called an "Employee Assistance Program" that will get you access to a therapist. Just know that what applies in "regular" counseling or therapy very often does NOT apply within the realm of domestic abuse. Hence, it's very important that whoever you see is well educated in the dynamics, etc. of domestic abuse. Keep us posted, it's so nice to hear you excited!

Mama Harmony

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Registered: 10-22-2001
Mon, 09-10-2012 - 5:34pm

Just some Links I thought I would share...

My dd has bipolar.

She is An Amazing young woman who has been through H*ll and back...

I am glad you are getting a Callback about an appointment.

While it has been one of the hardest things her and I and I have gone through, it was a "Relief" to know...kwim?

<3

http://ptsd.about.com/od/infoforfriendsfamily/a/PTSDViolence.htm?p=1

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/somatic-psychology/201105/domestic-violence-power-struggle-lasting-consequences

http://www.ptsd.va.gov/public/pages/domestic-violence.asp

http://safe-at-last.hubpages.com/hub/Signs-of-Domestic-Violence-Emotional-Abuse

http://www.ptsdtraumatreatment.org/trauma-effects/effects-domestic-violence/

Nightangel
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Registered: 05-10-2012
Mon, 09-10-2012 - 5:47pm

I think I will try to copy/past that thread so they can read it and not cause anyone here to feel exposed.   I do totally understand the need to feel safe.   Thnx.

My appt is not thru the Employee Assistance Program.  I called the DV hotline and asked for counselors experienced in DV. Told them I would like to find someone in my area.  They had no idea I worked for the hospital.  I have gone to an off campus location for prior counseling.

Anyway...thanks.  I am not sure this will be an actual therapist.   Maybe just a meet and greet, not sure.  But will keep u updated.

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Registered: 10-22-2001
Mon, 09-10-2012 - 7:32pm

I hope it works out well for you...

~hugs~

Nightangel
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Registered: 05-10-2012
Wed, 09-12-2012 - 4:55pm

Tuesday, right after work.   She is the medical advocate for the local YWCA.  She is a first responder to any ER admit due to abuse or any issues in house.   

She is trained in a lot of trauma, initial abuse (from the gal who set up the appt).   Even if this is just a first step to finding support groups or someone who may be more helpful in dealing with someone so many yrs out - I feel good about this.  And it's thanks to so many from here who have escaped, are still trying to find a way and those who just feel *crazy* when they never felt that way before.

Thank you all.   I wish I could respond to some other threads but I just don't feel like I have anything helpful to say.   I don't want to just take, I hope I can soon give some support too.

Thank you all.   I hope this newest attempt at therapy can shed some real light on my situ,

 

ETA - I did show a copy/paste of my post and cajunharmony's response to my two middle kids.   I was up til 1am talking to my son (had an earlier 2hr convo with my dd) about so much.  How they adored him at first, learned to hate him after he 'forced' me in to rehab,  were rooting me on when I finally fought back and how happy he left and devestated (and yet still relieved) that he took their step-brothers.   That's a very condesed version - they were also scared, freaked out by my behavior... a lot of stuff.  But the theme was that I was not the only one affected, they saw some of the manipulation that I couldn't/didn't.   

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Registered: 10-22-2001
Wed, 09-12-2012 - 10:19pm

~hugs~

I am so glad for you...:smileywink:

It's great that you and your kids got to talk.

<3

Nightangel