Battling on ....just...
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Battling on ....just...
| Fri, 07-09-2004 - 6:15am |
Hi guys I'm back again...I am signing a lease on the weekend and I was very excited at first but now the fear has set in. I am playing the what if game and I must admit it is very scary. I am due for my B12 injection actually overdue and I am really tired so my coping seems to be alot worse when I am tired. I keep wondering if I am doing the right thing I know he has not changed he has proved that time after time over the past 5 weeks since we separated and I totally get the no contact rule ...its just very difficult with the kids and our business. He is saying all the right things too and being so nice most of the time anyway. I am lonely already and I haven't even moved into my place yet! I feel like I am cracking like I am not going to sign the lease which would make the move out final....I have to keep focusing of the bad things he has done to give me the strength to move forward which is horrible I hate doing that so much.
How do you you guys do this especially when your children cry to you and tell you they don't want to leave????
How do you you guys do this especially when your children cry to you and tell you they don't want to leave????

Aw, hon.
CL-Blueliner4