been away awhile

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Registered: 04-11-2003
been away awhile
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Mon, 05-10-2004 - 2:23pm
I did leave for 3 days and wow did it feel good. I got a taste of what i have been missing out on. I left because the hitting was starting...oh no wait to him it wasn't hitting it was "patting" because he didn't leave any marks so there for in his eyes he did not hit me. I went to the womens shelter and I stayed with my cousin for the three days I was out. and he called all over the place looking for me, and I thought well I should go back because of course he cares about me if he called all over looking for me, I thought I wasn't the one who hasn't really been trying to make our relationship work. I can say for sure now he has my mind made up that Iam the weak one. It is set in my head that I didn't try. I told him that i hsve been talking to his ex wife I was honest and up front with him. well now of course it is my fault that he may lose his son. His son has been telling his mom how it scares him when wwe fight. His son has never seen him Hit (pat) me but he has heard some pretty hurtful, rough things. So I have been back now for about 3 weeks and its all the same. Now his big this is that I need to fix what i did so he doesn't lose his son, and if I don't then I have to go and he will take legal action. I know that is just a scare tactic and let me tell you its working. I can't remember what he called it where I have destroued his life. he knows I went to the womens shelter and totally freaked wanted me to there and tell them i lied and now his name is on file somewhere. Oh my goodness I don't know if I am coming or going. I know I need to leave but am really scared to do it. Thanks for listening
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Registered: 11-12-2003
Mon, 05-10-2004 - 2:40pm

Smoothie, listen to me NOW:


You are not the one at fault.

CL-Blueliner4