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Can I really Leave him
| Mon, 04-12-2004 - 4:45pm |
Can I really leave him? I am a 20 year old, I finished high school in the top 10% of my class I am a smart girl, or at least I thought I was. I have known him since high school. He has not hit me, yet. See when I am not with him I know that kind of relationship I have. I can figure out a million ways to say I want to leave, but once I am with him it's like the words will not come out of my mouth. My brain is yelling at me to leave him. The first time I realized I was in danger was the day I let him borrow my car and it came back with a marks like someone had run into it. I was upset and before I know it I told him it was over and I was trying to get into my car to park it so I could get into my apartment and away from him. His brother was standing between us because he kept trying to swing at me. My boyfriend took my keys and tossed them across the street. Lucky for me I had left my apartment unlocked, his brother opened the gate from me, however he moves fast as soon as I was in my apartment he was right behinde me. He followed me into my room and closed the door and when I tried to leave he kept pulling on my arm and wouldn't let me go, when I made it to the door he would push back on the bed and all the time he is yelling at me. Finally, I manged to get him out into the living room and was headed for the front door, I opened it and his brother was about to come in and hand me my keys, when he pulled me back and tackled me to the floor and then dragged me back into the room. Where he begged me not to leave him, needless to say I didn't. I told him that I am scared to be with him and scared to leave him. He is a drug dealer and I didn't find that out until it was to late. I feel like I can't leave him, he always carries a gun with him, a 22. He has told me he is not scared to use the gun on anyone that gets in his way. He has shown me what it would feel like if I get hit with the gun on the back of my head.

Hi sweetie, and welcome.
I apologize if this comes out harsh.
CL-Blueliner4
Don't tell him anything.
CL-Blueliner4
Mama Harmony
Im glad you left, but you have to stay strong, he is going to keep pulling on your heart strings, hoping he can convince you to come back. Stay away, it will only get worse, not better. I wish i had had your courage at 20. It has taken me 20 yrs to finally ask for help, and to accept help. Stay strong young one, you have your whole life ahead of you and you dont want or need to live in fear. Stay safe and take care.
Van
I'm glad that you're free, but you need to file a RO against him, and if he stalks you, harasses you, monitors your whereabouts, you need to report it to the police.