Can't believe im this strong!
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Can't believe im this strong!
| Tue, 10-03-2006 - 7:08pm |
Im just really proud of myself....My ex called me before the weekend and asked if I would drop "our" dog(the dog he bought me a year ago for my birthday) off for a little time as he "misses her" and its his birthday on Thursday so it would be a birthday present of sorts. I said I would try as I am very busy with working two jobs to save up money to move, but I was hoping to keep him happy until our court date on the 24th...Well this weekend passed with NO time for me to even sleep so last night I came home and slept from 8pm til 9 this morning when he called to ask if I could come over today so he could see my dog. But I told him I work 3-11 tonight and then Ill probably come home and sleep again to try and catch up as I work 9 days in a row this week. He then got mad that I would not come over after 11 when Im off work..11 AT NIGHT...that is...like he can spend quality time with her at 11:30PM in his apartment...So I said no it could perhaps be tomorrow(his birthday) or the next day as I have an earlier shift and will only be working one job those days. He then started asking me if I miss him and TOLD me im still in love with him...I just started laughing at this point because it was so ludicrous and he kept telling me Im probably lonely(even tho ive been seeing someone and have spent alot of time out with friends) but I just laugh and wont tell him this cuz I knew hed flip over a "boyfriend" of sorts....So then he begins in on how Im so selfish and I only think of myself, and Im being slefish not bringing her over tonight instead of going hom to sleep. So I hung up on him. He calls back about 20 minutes later and says " I just want to tell you you're selfish and immature as always and you only care about yourself. I f you cared about me, then you'd sacrifice sleep to make me happy" and i said "then i guess you can see i DONT care anymore. i sacrificed more than sleep for the past two years only to end up on my own again and repairing my mind body and soul" and he hung up when I said this. He hasnt called back but Im just so proud because I dont feel sad or angry or anything. I actually laughed when he hung up. It's just so GREAT to know that I'm finally out of his control. Im not even worried about court on the 24th. I just want that to be over so he can be completely erased from my life! Anyways, I hope this can make some others in the throes of a battle with leaving see that while leaving is hard and it's not all sunshine once hes gone, it does get better! DEFINITELY! I havent been this happy in at least 2 years and its GREAT!!!!!!

Wow, WOW!
So then he begins in on how Im so selfish and I only think of myself, and Im being slefish not bringing her over tonight instead of going hom to sleep. So I hung up on him. He calls back about 20 minutes later and says " I just want to tell you you're selfish and immature as always and you only care about yourself. If you cared about me, then you'd sacrifice sleep to make me happy" and i said "then i guess you can see i DONT care anymore. i sacrificed more than sleep for the past two years only to end up on my own again and repairing my mind body and soul"
Yeah!! Way to go. Way to be to speak your mind. He is trying to switch it all around on you again and you know what... it will always be like this. He will never change. You are not selfish.. he is the one being selfish and only thinking of himself. He doens't care that you didn't get enough sleep, he is only thinking of himself and how he wants to see the dog.
Lauren :)
Wow, you're incredible. I bet that felt so good when you said that him. I bet he was so shocked and didn't think you could speak to him like that!
It's a great feeling isn't it! Freedom.