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Registered: 11-06-2004
changing
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Sat, 11-06-2004 - 1:59am
i have wanted to post here for so long but have been not because my ex had knew about this site. Alot of you helped me so much. i am no longer wondering when i will die. Those thoughts are gone, he does not even have chance of parol for several years. From my last post there was one more time and that was the one that put him away for a long time. If not for his parents big money and top notch lawyer it would be much longer. It still gives my chills when i think about the insecurities and emotions i talked about here then to find out that he knew about my posts. i still have nightmares about what happened but that is just it, only dreams that i know can not be reality as long as he is in prison. i have been working with a counselor for quite a while now and feeling stronger as the weeks go by. i thought i was going to die on the day he went to jail. i gave up my hope for seeing the next hour, but by the grace of god i lived, when the ambulance came i remember realizing that my life was not over, and you girls' voices came back in my head. The strong wills and advice and encouragement that you had given me stayed with me from then on. Thank you for that. jj
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sat, 11-06-2004 - 8:35am

Hi there!!!

When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

- Maya Angelou

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Registered: 05-18-2004
Sat, 11-06-2004 - 11:08am
Oh, sweetie, it is SO GOOD to hear from you.

Mama Harmony

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Registered: 05-06-2003
Sat, 11-06-2004 - 2:20pm
That's all he got? Oh, that makes me soooooo mad after everything you went through. The justice system needs a new name! Can anyone think of a good one? (that doesn't involve profanity?)Grrrrr.....

I'm so very glad to see you post here. Overjoyed, in fact. (sniff, sniff) I've thought about you so very often and you have been in my prayers. I love your new nickname too. Very appropriate. It sounds like you are doing very well and you are definitely and inspiriation to many with what you have overcome. Welcome back my friend and I hope you stick around.

Keep looking up^, Susan.

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Registered: 11-12-2003
Sun, 11-07-2004 - 3:16pm

Oh, honey, I think we are all just glad you are alive.

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 11-06-2004
Mon, 11-08-2004 - 12:57pm
Thank you all for replying. i have thought about all of you often. He will have chance for parole in 5 years, i will do everything i can so that he does not have an early release. i wish all of the charges would have stayed but they pleaded for less. For instance, i had a restraining order when he attacked me outside the mall. i dont think he should have been allowed to get out after that, but they released him and that gave him the opportunity to come after me again. He took me from outside of a bookstore. It was completely against my will, but somehow were convincing that i went on my own. On my Own?? i am terrified of him! He shoved me into his SUV and told me if i screamed he was going to run me over. oh i cant even really think about it. I am just glad that i am safe now. I have a job with a good company as an accountant. i really Love it, when i am working it keeps me from thinking about him and what happened. My Dog is doing great!! we go for a walk twice a day and its relaxing. i am happy about life, i am so glad that i am safe i am so thankful for that.