From The Courage To Change....

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From The Courage To Change....
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Sat, 03-29-2003 - 6:32am
One Day At A Time In Al-Anon.

I used to love the stillness of early morning, but after years of living with an alcoholic/abuser I stopped noticing it. Instead I woke up the same way I went to sleep - frantic. Before I was out of bed I already had a long list of crisis that needed my attention. So no matter how early I got up, I was already late. I was so overwhelmed, I couldn't get up at all.

My life has changed. I heard someone in Al-Anon say that when they open their eyes in the morning, they also open their ears. Now as I awaken, I listen to the birds. I choose not to review my plans for the day until I've had my breakfast. I prefer to take time to enjoy my favorite part of the day.

Al-Anon is helping me to clear my mind of my burdens so that I am able to enjoy the wonder of the moment. I am beginning to enjoy a childlike awe about the splendor of nature, to see all the beauty around me, to let my face break into a smile spontaneously, to laugh, to love, to live again. Today I can say, "Good morning, God" instead of "Good God, it's morning".

Today's Reminder

Today I'll be keenly aware of my senses. I will think about what I am experiencing at this moment. I won't let the beauty of this day slip by unnoticed.

"Real generosity to the future consists in giving all to what is present".


P.S. Even though, I'm not living with an abuser any longer, this is something that I still strive to get back. It's not easy, but I'm sure worth it.

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Sat, 03-29-2003 - 7:24am
Thank you so much for this, I love that part where a person learns to say Good Morning, God, instead of Good God, It's Morning!!

Hugs!

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sat, 03-29-2003 - 11:08am
Thank you for this, sparklit. It sure hits home. Hugs.
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Sat, 03-29-2003 - 3:43pm
Love this post! I like the part about waking up saying "Good Morning God" too.

Funny that I used to always sleep in late, never been a morning person. But now mornings are my fave time since H is always gone. I feel that feeling of *dread* creep up on me about 2:30PM when H can arrive *any* minute. But even though AMs are alone time for DD & I, I'm usually so tired from the PM before & H's crap that I don't *fully* appreciate the AMs. One day soon I'll be avble to re-claim my days! XOXO--ruby