Dealing with his absence...venting
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| Wed, 04-26-2006 - 12:50pm |
I feel so depressed today, I feel like I've been punched in the stomach.
I hate this, I hate it. How can I have everything I've ever wanted, I've accomplished all my goals in life and yet I feel so empty. I'm financially independent, have my own place, my own car, and my own dog. And yet as I type it I feel so lonely. He is completely out of my life. Maybe I just need to work on my self-esteem. I just like having someone to share things with, the closeness of a relationship.
I'm just so frustrated. My heart is overflowing with love, anxious to give it to someone and no one is there to take it. All I want is someone to take care of, someone to cook for, someone to look after. I just want a best friend, I just want someone to love me as much as I love them. I hate being heartbroken, whether he was good for me or not.
I didn't do anything wrong, but yet I feel like I've failed miserably. All I can do is put my faith in God and trust that he will take care of me.
Just needed to vent.....

aggie,
Sometimes we look for happiness to come from other people,when really we should be looking to ourselves.I heard someone say once that "true happiness comes from within". It's SOOO true! Everyone has something they enjoy doing,whether it be reading,taking a trip,spending time with family/friends,going for a long walk etc. Find something you love to do,maybe something you've always wanted to do but didnt have the time or were afraid to try.
When our lives revolve around other people (willingly or not) we tend to "lose" ourselves.
I certainly have,but I look forward to "finding" ME again someday.
(((hugs)))
Serenity
If I have learned anything in life, it's that the only person you can really, truly count on is yourself. You always will be there for yourself-you sort of have to be, when you go to think about it. :)
Thus, I agree that the best thing is to learn how to be happy with yourself. Focus on learning to live with yourself, how to make yourself happy, how to be content with who you are as a person. At that point, you will be ready for a relationship, because healthy relationships add to the happiness we already have rather than making up the whole of it. How you do that is up to you, but it's something to think about.