deperate

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-07-2004
deperate
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Mon, 06-14-2004 - 11:14pm
First of all I would like to thank everyone who responded to my post. All of the advice was greatly appreciated. I took the abuse checklist test and my husband was positive for 66 of the 122 criteria. (typical traits of abusers.) Now I must start to look at what is wrong with me why did I stay. In fact this morning we had another fight and now I have a bruised arm and cheek. I feel to scared to go to the womens shelter

so I spent the day at the library(on this computer) and tonight Im going to stay at the 24 hour walmart. I know its pathetic but the hotels around here are 70 dollars a night.

Tomorrow morning i will go sleep in my storage facility. Then i will get rid of the little bit of property I have and book a flight home to Canada. Why am I so scared and confused. I feel physically sick. I want to return to my job but I cant cuz he works there. Thank you all for being here and letting me vent. Without this board I would totally be alone in this country.I cant even make the best decision for me. When I think of Canada I have family and friends there but no job. Here in the south the jobs are good and the weather is beautiful. My mind is messed up thats why I am rambling.
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-12-2003
In reply to: cuppyis
Tue, 06-15-2004 - 2:08am

Honey, you have nothing to be scared of going to a shelter, they are there for your benefit and you have a right to be there, just like everyone else.

CL-Blueliner4