Do you know the feeling?
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Do you know the feeling?
| Wed, 08-18-2004 - 11:42am |
SO the first night I met him, he made me cry, and that should have been my sign right there. But, obviously it wasn't or I wouldn't be making this post. Two years later, after many fights, and losing all my friends, and family, after becoming burnt out, and down, I feel nothing but confused, and trapped? And I feel even worse to having it come down to this, whinning on the internet, but I just need, I so depserately need someone else to say that they know the feeling. I need to feel a connection, or something real, something that says that this really isn't normal- all the reasoning with myself, "well he wouldn't be this way if I didn't ..." or the "This is only temporary he'll change, really?" Or the contstant thoughts of, wow this is great, but it isn't going to last, so make the best of it and wait. I've seen a therapist, and all he has done was give me options, well you could do this, you could do that, and it just doesn't make sense... it does but it's just not logical for the situation. Just leave, or tell him how you feel, and I've done these things, but it just seems as though they don't work. Maybe it's me? Maybe I'm just not strong enough to follow through with uprooting my life, and then throwing someone whom I think/thought/know I care about out of my life. Although I wish I could, but I also wish he'd just be nicer.... do you know the feeling?

Hi NOT Crazy, and welcome -
I say "not" crazy, because you're not.
CL-Blueliner4
The last thing I wanted to do was uproot my life. I had been married for several years and to the outside world we had it all. I have been free for 8 months and cannot even begin to explain how I am slowly coming to realize what was done to me. It's being done to you. Read and learn.
Hugs,
Terry