feeling numb..

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feeling numb..
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Fri, 01-06-2012 - 7:19pm

i have been feeling a tired/achy but at the same time I feel numb. It is like nothing makes an impact on me. I need to feel the anger again to do something. I am just laying status quo.

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Sat, 01-07-2012 - 11:31am

I am not sure what you are feeling?? It sounds like depression..

When i was numb I would just stare in front of the tv and sit there for hours but I came to find out it was my depression and sometimes it felt like ptsd...because everything around me was crashing.

Sometimes I had to let go of the control of what was happening. It was like I just gave it to God and let him handle it and then waited it out... and go about my business of living if you could call it that. Most days felt like a death because of the divorce.That is also what you might be feeling.. A loss, something you cant get a grip on.. , grieving process. Knowing the end of your marriage is near.. Its all normal feelings.

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Sat, 01-07-2012 - 1:48pm

you are probably right. I think I realise that Nothing will change, unless I change it. But to change it myself, it is a process of letting go, a grieving process no doubt, and I need to come to terms with it that life did not turn out the way it should have. But this is what will make it better in the long run. That is the eseence-

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Sat, 01-07-2012 - 2:27pm

Yes; It is undertandable not wanting to go through the fire and the grieving process and that is probably why people stay in bad relationships.. I remember crying a thousand rivers even though my ex was abusive. Hey; we can still love people no matter what and still have to grieve the loss.. I remember going into the grocery store and seeing Irish soda bread..in which me and my ex ate all the time.. well? I left that store crying all day long because it was a trigger for me in my grieving process.

I also used to think that I wasted

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Sat, 01-07-2012 - 9:13pm
Anger makes it easier to react but I dont think you should wait for the anger because I don't think acting in anger is good. In this case if it gets done what needs to get done its ok but I think you will feel better and make a better impression on your dd if you can find a way to stay calm.

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Mon, 01-09-2012 - 9:36am

I just wanted to give you some big ((HUGS)), Winter.

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