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Filed for divorce
| Thu, 04-29-2004 - 1:07pm |
I've got to admit I'm a little scared. My stomach is turning and this is so much harder to deal with then I ever expected it to be. I broke down talking to the lawyer. When she asked me how many times he had hit me or the kids. Then I had to go into detail about all the things that had happened. I forgot about the time he tried to throw me into oncoming traffic. I feel sick!!! My nerves are just out of wack right now. I can't even eat. I just want to cry. To think about all the things I put up with for him. The things I put my kids threw. It's killing me. The good news is she thinks the judge will order supervised visitation. Also when they serve the divorce papers they will also serve an RO. She went through a safety plan w/me and I'm prepared for what may and could happen. I had to come into work and tell everyone what has happened so they will know what to expect in two weeks when he does get the papers. B/c I know he will violate the RO. I'm fighting back tears. I should go home. I really think I have a good case against him. I don't know what these emotions are running through me right now. It's hard. Not leaving him, but taking this step. I just wanted to thank you all for supporting me and helping me get this far. Even in this hard time, I feel better then when I was w/him.
Mel

Mel -
What you did, by telling the lawyer what happened to you and your kids, is very difficult and emotional, so it's no wonder you are feeling the way you are.
CL-Blueliner4
It's tough now, and it might get tougher before it gets easier.
The hardest part for me is dealing with the fact that I allowed this to happen to my kids for too long. Get your kids help if they need it, and don't forget this.....although your kids are very important to you, get help for yourself because they need your strength.
You are a woman...you are strong enough...you can handle this.
Love to you,
Sarah