this is getting way old way fast
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| Wed, 10-06-2004 - 10:25am |
I used to enjoy sex. Now it has become a weapon. My husband came to the decision about a year ago that if I don't have sex with him on a very regular basis say at least 4 times a week that I no longer love him and that I am cheating on him. I'm just feeling used. A couple of weeks ago I found a piece of paper in his car that said times between cycles. He was tallying how many times we have sex with in my monthly cycles. And yes I did confront him lets just say I think I lost yet another argument. I am so I don't even know. In the past few years he has just become mean. Or maybe I'm just tired. I work two jobs go to school. My MIL and SIL live with us and that sucks so big time I have never liked my MIL we just don't get along and now I'm her main care giver because she has cancer. Do you know how hard it is to be compasionat to someone who has tried to kill you. So of course I have taken on a very active role of raising the teenager SIL. Oh yea I have a child of my own who is special needs. Blah Blah. I work until 2am on average and get up to take my son to school around 6:30 am. I am tired. I'm so sick of husband accusing me of sleeping with someone else. Hello I don't even like sex with you anymore why would I wast my time with someone else. If I had some time I would be taking a nap. I'm sick of him insulting me in front of my MIL and his friends I'm sick of him going out and drinking and not comming home. I'm sick of me having to pretent that I'm not mad because if I show and negitive emotion at all, lets just say my life sucks even more until I appologize and admit that it was my fault what ever the situation may be.
Could I move out yes I could I have places to go. Do I want to admit that I have allowed my life to come to this to my family and friends not really. But the biggest thing is IT IS MY HOUSE, although it really doesn't seem like it right now.

Hi leftovrsam...I happen to have a girlfriend who is in the process of divorcing her husband, and for more than 15 years he's kept sex charts of when they've had sex and of what type.
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