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| Wed, 03-17-2004 - 10:01am |
Hi all. I know what you must all be thinking reading my heading. I am going bacj\k to my husband. I just can't stand being apart anymore. I really truely believe that he has changed. I know some of my last few posts would tell a differant story, but in the last few days, things have been great. He has been keeping the kids with no problems, he has told crystal that we are back together and I am working on moving out of Kevins house. I know most people go back quite a few times before they leave for good, but i really hope this is for good now. The times I have seen him he has been so loving and he tells me how much he loves me all the time now. Please don't judge me wrong for going back. I just feel it is the right thing to do. I will still post since I know there is the potentiol of him going backwards, but right now its good. Thanks everyone. Christina



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Peace and hugs,
Cheryl =)
The minute you settle for less than you
Hi. I am sorry it has taken me weeks to reply, but so much has happenend to me and I am so ashamed. I went through a few days of really wanting to go back and I completly ruined things with Kevin. I realized way too late that Kevin was the man of my dreams. We had a really bad few days and he decided to go and work things out with his wife for his daughters sake. I decided that going back was just not the best idea because I still can't let my husband touch me with out cringing. So I have lost the best thing that will probably ever happen to me because I was stupid and couldn't face the fact that I had a great man at home willing to take care of me and my kids. I have since moved out of Kevins house and have found a place of my own with my girls. My stbxh still calls crying the blues that he misses me and wants to be a family and whan I start to believe him he starts to act stupid and say stupid things, just like he used too. I am lonely in the love department, since I am so in love with Kevin that it hurts, but we are still friends and we talk almost everyday. I know that probably isn't helping my broken heart, but I still hold on to the fact taht there still may be a chance. Once my stbxh is out of my life for good( divorce) other than for the kids.I was probably really upset in the last post because I was so confused, but I really don't think I am gonna go back right now. Just like I tell my h, I can't predict the future, but right now I can't be in a relationship with him. I have my independence, something I haven't had in 10 years.My girls are finally stable and happy for the most part. I want to thank everyone for being so supportive and to let anyone concidering going back to read the book by Lundy Bancroft and also a book titled, " It's My Life Now". Those books are what really openend my eyes to the whole big picture. Thanks again. Christina
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