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| Mon, 08-09-2004 - 10:55am |
well its been a bad weekend,so here comes in the venting stuff,with this pregnancy I feel SO worn out all the time,just NO energy and drained! my skin is pale as a ghost and I look like a skronny chicken! except for my tummy,baby seems to be takin all the good stuff!I never feel like doing anything!
well DH claimed he was going to help out around here more,he said he'd do dishes every night,well he doesnt,he leaves them until I do them,and by that time,they are TOO gross to describe to you! lets just say I gag and throw up over these things......well yesterday he invited some of his friends over,and asked me to "help" him do dishes,only he di dnt help! I did them! I got very upset at the almost finished point and told him to finish them,which he did NOT! his friends never showed up,they never do when he invites those 2! which is good cause I dont like them!
well then he wants to go to his parents house,and we dont get along at all,his father is an athiest pig and his mother hates me due to my SIL telling horrible lies about me,even to the point of saying this baby is NOT DH's because in highschool he was kicked in the "stuf" too many times to be able to make babies,and DH never even said anything about it...???
we were over there and things got bad,his father curses alot and is very perverted so he tells DH that when the baby is born he will have to suck out the milk because big boobs hurt and its awesome to do....and went into detail about doing so to my MIL.??? sick yes and I was very mad because my 7 yr old DD was RIGHT in the room.......I was horrified,she didnt understand what they were talking about because she was watching cartoons,but she couldve........DH said NOTHING and when we got home and I said how could you say nothing? he said about what and laughed,I said you know what,Mr Milk...and he just laughed and said thats dad!
we havent talked to these people in 8 or 9 months because they stold $4000 from us,and now all of a sudden DH wants them in our lives,so last night his mom says we are going to buy the first car seat,I had told DH I wanted to get it,so I could get the stroller combo,he told her COOL go for it those things are expensive....she said well what kind? I said nothing by a certain company because I HATE their stuff,and she said god picky are you? want the more expensive kind huh? I was SO hurt and angry!! its NOT about more expensive,its about quality and WOULD YOU buy something thats had alot of recalls to their company for your child? naa but she was angry with me and DH just laughed again........
well then later on his oldest sister,NOT the one who lies about me,and her DH came over to see our house,we have lived here a year and NONE of his family wanted to see it,because we bought it and they said buying a house at our age is stupid because we are TOO Young.....well a few min. later the sister that did say those things about me,shows up,and waltzes in,dh STILL didnt say anything to her,so here IN MY Home was that witch who says horrid things about me,she stayed for almost an hour and then left,and the other sis left too,I was like that was odd,having someone that talks about you in your home..dh was like sorry bout that and laughed!!
I lost a baby when I worked with THAT sis and he never told them,I was SO stressed out because of her lies and the trouble she was starting that it happened,dr said overstressed!
now here I am pregnant again and terrified of these people and how they are! DH never says a word to them when they are mean to me! or when his dad talks like a sicko around me/dd!!!
I dont know what to do? Ive asked him why he allows it,he just laughs and says you cant win with them.....so WHY would you want to subject your children to it? I dont know why he is doing this and lettnig them do what they do!
Im so upset and hurt,I dont know what to do anymore! his family thinks its all hillarious,they all laugh over it and joke about it!?I hate to go around them,I get SO upset and stressed out when we do.....I dont know what to do,the older sisters hubby told us the other day,that Im getting fat and he told my DH that he was too young to do what causes that! and said and you are too old to let him,talkin to me,because Im 30 and DH is 21.....
anyways thats about it,I go see my doc again Friday to checkup on the bleeding and see how the baby is!

In the four years total I was with my XH, I never once was defended by him to his family as his mother, then his brother ripped me limb from limb in every conversation, going from I was not supportive to all of my problems with religion stemming from the fact my family is Catholic (she's born again and converted the brother.
CL-Blueliner4