Find a Conversation
|Wed, 01-26-2011 - 12:58pm|
Had a session with my therapist yesterday. Just realised (or rather validated) that the more I stay with an OCD, dominant person, who is used to getting his way by bullying and tantrums, the more I am learning to 'live with it', 'getting numbed out', keeping subservient and submissive. Every weekend, he and DD have war of words..he is overly strict, shouts at small things - yesterday he saw a tiny bit bread crumb..we got shouted at, when I asked him if he had given her food before she left for her activity, he showed his fist at me saying..she is old enough she should ask when she is hungry. yes, I agree but raising his fist and yelling at me for asking him that is not right. Today he went on an on about why dd let the pet (who was dirty from the rain) inside a room..I mean come on..it wasn't a big deal..I just stay quiet to not let situation escalate. If I try to tell anything, he blows.
Sooo...I think the only way to end this is to leave. thanks for being patient with me..but I appreciate any response. I think I need to get my strength back and do this for DD and me. I am scared obviously with finances..but I keep remembering Kat's message (and trust God here..)..you have to learn to keep the faith and look to Him for strength.