hello from someone long ago

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Registered: 01-04-2004
hello from someone long ago
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Thu, 04-08-2004 - 6:36pm
Hi-

It's been eons since I posted here. I used to be freebird a loooong time ago. Well, it is going to be my 2 year anniversary of freedom on the 20th of April. It was extremely tough but we did get away. We had to run again about two or three months after the escape, he had a PI trace me. I did talk to the PI who was told my x said he was my brother, told him all and he checked it out and told me he wouldn't be telling x anything or where we were. That was quite a while ago. So here we are safe and unhurt. The kids don't talk about the abuse as much anymore and are done needing counseling according to their counselor. They have grown and thrived. Me, I still go to counseling when the nightmares come around and memories get too tough to deal with alone. I still cringe at the sight of Santa, he plays Santa for Christmas, kind of ironic-Santa is supposed to be a nice guy. LOL I just wanted to share a bit of how we are doing. To all who remember me, I wanted to thank you, you helped me when things were so bad. I had a choice, stay and die eventually or get out and live. I chose life and it is good.
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Registered: 11-12-2003
Thu, 04-08-2004 - 7:09pm

Hi Pat!

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 04-08-2004 - 9:36pm
Hi there.

When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

- Maya Angelou

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Registered: 01-04-2004
Thu, 04-08-2004 - 10:51pm
I used the name pac also, being ultra safe then I changed my name a couple of times. It has been a while. I remember mizlizzy, and there was mindspeak, I was the one who was stuck in the very rural area and could only access this site at the library.

Hanz and Franz, hmmmmmm, they sound yummy! LOL I want a comfy spot and a margarita, extra salty..... and keep those coming! Hee hee!

Oh yea, maybe you might remember me, I have the twins, one with cerebral palsy.... anyhoo, I hope that gives you an idea. :-)
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Registered: 01-04-2004
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 1:35am
I did a whoopsie! I figured out what my name here was two years ago....jusmehere!!! Gee, I did some looking at the archives and I feel so much for that sad, scared woman I used to be. Kind of a shock re-reading what I wrote so long ago. Makes me go, Did I really get thru all that????? So anyway, I'm back! and of course, still free and very happy.
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Registered: 04-07-2003
Fri, 04-09-2004 - 1:38am
Hey Girl!! Thank you so much for the update! It's always nice, and awesome, to hear from those who have been *here* before, and to know how things are going for you *now*.

We have *seen and talked to* so many over the years, and we all benefit from sharing our personal experiences. I wonder about so many people, and do remember you, very well!!

It's so wonderful that you and your children are doing so well!! Congratulations on your upcoming Freedom Anniversary!!

You have been in my thoughts and prayers, and the 20th is noted, as a day of celebration, for you and your precious children! I will think of y'all as that day approaches, especially, and smile, knowing you are happy, safe, free, and thriving! Please stay in touch as you can!


I'm free as a bird now, (humming and smiling) ........always LOVED this song and Lynrd Skynrd! (lil history there too, related to this board too ;)

Freebird-Lynrd Skynrd

If I leave here tomorrow

Would you still remember me?

For I must be travelling on, now,

’cause there’s too many places I’ve got to see.

But, if I stayed here with you, girl,

Things just couldn’t be the same.

’cause I’m as free as a bird now,

And this bird you can not change.

Lord knows, I can’t change.

Bye, bye, it’s been a sweet love.

Though this feeling I can’t change.

But please don’t take it badly,

’cause lord knows I’m to blame.

But, if I stayed here with you girl,

Things just couldn’t be the same.

Cause I’m as free as a bird now,

And this bird you’ll never change.

And this bird you can not change.

Lord knows, I can’t change.

Lord help me, I can’t change.

Reading the lyrics is ironic, considering abuse, but, it's an awesome song, and it's awesome that you are a "freebird"!

Love and HUGS!!!

(Along with best wishes for you, and your precious children as you continue on your healing journey)