I am going crazy here!?
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| Tue, 01-11-2005 - 11:53pm |
hi everyone,
these last few days have been really rough, I am trying to hold all my anger towards my husband in but its driving me crazy!! I went and seen my counseller for the first time on monday and that was nice, she really helped me understand why he does all of this, but it seems the more power and strength i get, the more i just want to pack up and leave, which money wise i cannot. I am starting to read books and see how he is really been treating me, and it makes me sooo mad!!!!!
I find myself just picking fights with him just cause i want to scream at him, its so hard to keep all this under wraps for another couple months, while i hide away money. I think he is starting to clue in to me because he looks at me like im going crazy and might be thinking that i am getting power back, which he does not like.
For example, today we were talking and he said something like "oh im gonna smack your ass" (jokin) and i said YEAH WELL ITS NOT LIKE YOU HAVENT HIT ME BEFORE, and he comes over to me acting all sweet and says, oh hunny, you hit me first.UGH!.when i look at him i just want to smack him, i dont want to even touch him . How do i pretend to love someone i hate so much ....How do i keep this all in!?!?!
Edited 1/11/2005 11:56 pm ET ET by iv_skorpio
| Wed, 01-12-2005 - 12:18am |
| Wed, 01-12-2005 - 8:36pm |
