I am scared to go out of the house

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Registered: 07-08-2004
I am scared to go out of the house
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Mon, 02-21-2005 - 8:57am
My husband is so jealous that even with the children I feel like I can not leave our house. Yesterday I took the children to the store and then to ice skate. He was working and called 4 times on my cell phone while we were out. When he got home last night our oldest son told him that we had seen someone that he knows from going to pray. Later after the children were sleeping, I was questioned and yelled at for over an hour while we would not let me get up out of my chair. I don't know how but he convinced me and made me say that I wanted the man to talk to me more, that I liked his attention. I DIDNT want that. This morning I am so confused at how I could say that and feel that last night. I think I am going crazy. I feel like I do not deserve to leave this house. I don't know what is wrong with me. Thank You for listening. Any advice is always appreciated.
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Registered: 05-18-2004
Mon, 02-21-2005 - 9:26am

Sweetheart, you are not going crazy, HE IS DRIVING YOU THERE!!!

Mama Harmony

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Registered: 07-14-2003
Mon, 02-21-2005 - 10:07am

Hon, I was in tears reading your post. This is extremely scary. I completely agree with Mama H - he's getting closer and closer to killing you. You deserve to live and your children need you alive. If you can't bring yourself to escape for your own sake, please do it for them. But I hope you'll do it for you. Please, look up the people Mama H directed you to and talk with them this morning. We're praying for your safety, but it's in your hands now.

Big hugs and keep us posted if you can. Public libraries are good for that.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-08-2005
Mon, 02-21-2005 - 11:09am
Mama Harm and Gonna are dead on right about this.
5yrssm 
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Registered: 07-08-2004
Mon, 02-21-2005 - 1:21pm
I am so sorry that I post but do not take your advice. I want to, I am just so scared. I think I am at a wall that I can not get past. I am pregnant with our 6 st child. I have to ask permission for everything, even explaining why I am leaving a room. I don't want to be a failure as a parent. I don't want our gentle sons to grow up to use their fists against their wives. I don't want our girls to feel/be the way I am. On the outside, we have the the american dream. No one knows I shake when I see him rub wring his hands because I know he will beat me later when we are alone. That I always walk easy on my feet because one time he beat my feet almost breaking them for "stomping about the house". I am coming to terms that I live a nightmare. I shake so much sometimes I can't control it and have to hide my hands. I need to call and get help.
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Registered: 02-08-2005
Mon, 02-21-2005 - 1:40pm
You can come here and post as much as you'd like.
5yrssm